Monday, March 31, 2008

dinner-ing alone in the room,
when i caught this movie called
TRU CONFESSION
was super touching and nice.
i cried while watching,
its like a movie you have to watch to feel and understand it
listening,you will just find it retarded.
its like so lovign and touching.
just awesome touching.
i cry alot,more than secret or any movie watched.
so imagine if sj watched..
everyoen sure drown

(9:04 PM)

Sunday, March 30, 2008

phon-ed with mummy,
wanted ask her if comfirm going ms.
in the end,
she kinda had a deeptalk with me.
maybe shes right,
i am rebellious,much of nth she can do now.
i enjoy to be with them,
not that i dont with cm.
i guess i have a stronger bond with them,
becuase i spend more time.
maybe you were right,
studystudy still fail.
said many things on the phone,
some reasons,tears just filled my eyes.
and i cri-ed.
but i really liektreasure love beign spending time with them,
i t always fille dwith laughter,
maybe i cna understand why you dont like me hanging out with them,
i've really chang-ed alot.
even i dont recognise myself
looking back at those old photos,
reminded of the old me.
which was so much better.
looking back at the mirror,
realised what a monster i had become.
i've many regrets,
utmost esp to the one who sacrifice himself for me.
guilt is what i felt.
hes the one person,
that at least i know will alwyas be by my side.
yet the one i neglected and drift away the most.
the way mummy said it,
was heart-breaking fo rher to see me become like this,
what more him,
i cri-ed,feeling really bad.
either way,
i'd be the bad guy to either sides.
i seem to be have lost my purpose here,
forgotten what i was here for,
persuing empty things.
i care about daddy being saved also,
i really do.
people have no right to judge,
nor do i have any.
i guess its time for change again.
for the better this time.
though you seem to always nag,
but thnkas for caring.
i guess i need time alone,
reflect,i am utmost sorry.
etiher way to both sides,i'd be sorry.
drifted so much form daddy,
that he dont work.
also dont know.
neglected everyone becos of selfisheness
how selflish can i get
maybe i shld'nt have done that,
false hopes am i giving,
ppl reading this,
might think i'm such a shityshit.
i admit i am,
i dont know,
caught in between,sad.
being afraid to see ppl see me with you
is so i dont know how to say

i really need someone i can pour my sorrows to,
everything cooped inside,
i feel horrible everytime,
all i can do i just cry.
alone,seemed that noone understands?
i dont emo,its just..
when ppl say you can count on them,
not saying they make empty promises or what,
but its almost impossilbe,
if pur everything out,
you will think the person is so unreasonable and weird,
the biggest problem is TRUST
i neglected you,
i dont even think i am worthy to be called your child.
both daddys,heaven and earth i neglected.
both with the same broken heart,
i am sorry,
from now on,i will change for better,
no compromises,
one life,one purpose,one goal,one way,one love.
i think i'm hurting ppl right now,
sorry,
but i am really confused.
maybe all of you think i am ununderstandable.
i need time to sort out,
i will soon,fron now on.
i will be a changed person.
i iwll try my very best

say so much "I AM FINE"
that i dont even know the meaning of it anymore
just custom to answer ppl back,
when you dont kow how to say,
or jsut want them to stop asking and worry.
becuase you feel they wont udnerstand,
true enoguh,they dont.
good counselor to others,not to yourself,

(10:45 AM)

HAPPY 10 months gaybestie,

eventhough,it seems like we really drift so much.
tht when ever in school,
we seemed as though we are acquaintances only
i sort of almost forgot.
really sorry,
the 10 months with you as gaybesties.
irritating and disturbing you.
i miss you,gaybestie.
i make sure on our 1 year.
i will give you an unforgettable day:]
must high all the time ok?
i love you manymany,
this 10 months,i guess werent that easy,
esp i always moodswing,
thn attitude.
its a wonder you can sitll tahan me.
on 1 year day,must go out.
thn take manypictures.
i have so little of your pictures.
must take more okay?
that way,even if we drift or even become like strangers,
i still have wonderful memories of you
and the fun and joy you brought me:]

i love you gay,bestie

(10:16 AM)

Thursday, March 27, 2008

today was fun(?)
walk-ed to sch with ang and kang.
hohos;DD
blahblah,
recess,my WONDERFUL friends.
put me in "childcare centre".
hahah:]

so yeah sat down with dd,
was nice:]
but like freeshow,everyoen like looking.
ohwell,dont care luh.
hahaha;DD
was cool,
after bell rang,
they fetched me from my childcare teacher
lol!
thn at the hall,
was ridiculously weird luh.
dd's WONDERFUL friends were disturbing.
they are a serious bunch
of sickhorny people!:]
hahah;DD
they are gay luh,
yeah got improvement,cool right(?)
hahah!
someone not so HJ le.
its like miracleshockshock.
haha;DD
during break,
ANGSHAOJUN go buy me green tea!
greentea leh,eeyer.
hahaa;DD
dont know i hate to drink it so much.
actually ok,i just dont adore it.
so i suggested to give dd.
found him at court,
aiyoh,slap him luh.
pass-ed him the thing.
at first sitll reject me.
irritating only.
haahha;DD
got scolding today,and our bridge work
hohohos;DD
after sch,
bus-ed to downtown with twinnie.
was drenched like shit,
study abit,did stars.
i will post your "HORNY" picture one day

i'd hope it will rain everyday,
no sunlight is better.
please rain,or be cloudy.
i dont like sun:[

dd,i loveyou manymany

(7:37 PM)

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

twinnie all the way:]
shaojun has small eyes,her contacts cheat ppl.
if not,i'd have bigger eyes than her:]

today school was okay i guess.
was feeling damn tired during el.
history was cool!
huiwen dont play with combs,
hahaha;DD
they are only for combing:]
was fun.
XIN CHAO!vietnamese principals observed.
hahaa;DD
and dearestdarbee,
i dont have short legs okay
i dont need step tall,already tall:]
was kinda having a leg fight.
hohohos;DD
mt was ...as usual.
hahah;DD
after sch,went hut with twinnie.
while waiting for zhu and kang.
did cl.
and dd,you hj only.
hhaha;DD
you need to go see a anti-hj specialist.
lol.
i got leg muscles,i can and will win you.
clean your shoes,
before you step on my shoe.
and compete with me okay?
haha;DD
was gay but nice.
justinling,you funny luh.
chase my angshaojun away only
hahah;DD
today was gay.
midyears are coming,
oh boy i need to mug man.

i have a humhumji dd,
hohohos.
i am kinda used to it alrdy:]
will be immune soon
that was what i told twinnie.
its okay

(7:34 PM)

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

DEAR PERSON WHO IS NOT HAPPY WITH ME,
DO I KNOW YOU?
OR ARE YOU JUST A PASSER-BY?
MIND SAYING YOU FROM WHERE?

if you think i go church also like that,
but what makes you think
you are worthy or are better to judge me,
i dont think you are any better,
since you did make such comments.
you not happy,
dont come my blog.
nobody use a knife and threaten you
to come my blog right?
you have the right not to come,
and i have the right to blog what i want.
not happy,dont come.
it will save you from getting all upset about it.
i am serious,
dont come luh.
at least now,
i make effort to be a bettr christian.
not pisssed or what.
maybe you got your own point.
seriously,
dont like me,if i know you.
tell me in the face,
i wont scold or what,
because it'd make me the same as you.
i want be different from you,
:]
say for all you want,
i dont really care

(8:38 PM)

Saturday, March 22, 2008

woke up at 6 plus today.
was like walking zombie.
met merri.
was late=X
hohohos;DD
train-ed there.
westcoasr park was nice,but hot.
climbed thw webthing,
compete talk.
playplay.
kwokseng only ate one hotdog for the competition.

haha;DD

so funny luh.
after that,
went harbourfront.
jasmine,amanda,merri
with yeowsheng and cell
was nice yah.
went plazza sing.
stupid boonkiat emos like...
hahah;DD
jaychou's songs.
went to this shop called miss whatever.
supersuper nice man.
after that,
merri,amanda,jasmine went cathay watched stepup.

train-ed to bugis.
meet lijuan,twinnie,kat.
love those three.
highigh,
hahaha;DD
katherinekang,you wore damn cool luh:]
hahah;DD
went bugisstreet.
boguht our schoolbags.
i not sure if i really liked mine.
but hope i will soon.
bag,i will love you:]
haaha;DD
walkwalk,talktalk.
nicenice,after that.
went cinema there,sit talk.
was rocky nice.
hahaa;DD
i lvoe it,lets do it again.
SISTERS!:]

hahaha;DD
had manymany fun,love you all.
after that,
train-ed to tm.
went cs,cam-whored and all.
super funny and high.
everyone laugh manymany today.
and i lost to dearest darbee today,
it rain:[
tnh he lousy,nvr think of good forfeit.
he is spoiling me!
hohohos;DD
tpday was superb cool,
except that i wore jersey and shorts and slippers everywhere.
the feeling was eeww.
hahaha;DD
I LOVE twinnie,lijuan,kat:]
and kat i want the pics with you luh

(9:49 PM)

Friday, March 21, 2008

today was funfun:]
sorry i pangshe you yesterday.
but becos of you,
i rolled off my bed.
pain okay!
hahaha;DD
met twinnie at mac at 10.
hohos;DD
did chem,study abit.
until the person chase us away.
went voiddeck,
study talktalk.
slack listen music.
was fun yeah,i love you twinnie:]
huiwen latelate.
hohohos;DD
went elvin's hse.
selwin,kelmond,zx was there.
did our bridge project.
was weirdcool?

finish it:]
hahah,after talktalk.
use comp talk gossip.
hahah;DD
funfun luh,
thn watch trailer of shutter.
scared sj,so funfun:]
WHEETS*
hahaha;DD
flatten ppl's hair,was fun
went interchange with twnnie.
bus-ed home

today was fun luh,
i love you darbee:]

(8:08 PM)

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

sometimes physical pain is better
than emotional ones.
at least they'd go away.
while emotional ones take
a long time to fade away.
they may even remain
there as scars forever.
any amounts of painkillers
wont even be of any use to ease the pain
you may try to use physical pain
to numb the pain in your heart
but know that,
it cant possibly mend that broken heart of yours

school was fine.
had laughters as usual.
hohohos;DD
was nice luh.
mdm chng caught me for my earsticks.
and the "upstairs" one,like what she said.
hahah;DD
was paiseh man.
whole day tried to take the stud out.
cant!
keep got the PIAK! sound.
until after recess,
sj pullpull.
thn so pain,suddenly PIAK!
come out.
thn she and joelle go scream!
scream for me only,
victim never even scream.
but it was hell pain.
was like cupping my ear.
thn mr raymond ng go ask us stand!
whats his problem?
i trying to take out right.
make us paiseh only.
whatever luh.
after that,
had a hard time trying to poke wholething.
apparently,shaojun was disgusted it.
was applying
alot of pressure on ear to go in.
cannot find it mah.
thn very fustrated,
so jsut force it in,can vent anger.
earstud is stuck again.
hurts like!
hohohos;DD
i need to buck up man,
4 more weeks!stop being a lazyshit
i am utterly disappointed in you,vivian
in academics,friendships,family,self...
you've not done well in all.
you've changed,
your character sux now

i miss you more everyday,
talk to me more face-to-face
thats the only thing i asked for:]

(6:08 PM)

Monday, March 17, 2008

people all around the world,
face problems,hurts all the time
it isnt just you.
sometimes thinking about it
wont salvage the problem,
it would probably end up worst.
so bottomline today:
just let nature takes its course.
thinking about it
will only result you being in greater agony.
there are many things,
worth for you to love and treasure.
do it before you lose them.
feelings is something that wont last,
it will fade.

"loving someone is not posessing
but being willing to sacrifice oneself
in order to see them do well
seeing their joy and happiness
it will naturally bring a smile to you
thats smth like TRUELOVE"
yourstruly,

had school today,
was enjoyable and fun and high.
during pe.
ran outisde school.
was cool:]
after that,
mt.annual horrible session.
zhangyan was scolding and insulting ppl as usual.
and so funny!
took my eyeliner.
was fun pushing,gay luh.
hohohos;DD
i love you more each day,(i think)
maybe you dont.lesser each day?
that i dont know.
hahahah;]
had history!
huiwen is simply hilarious:]
stay-ed back after school,
with shaojun and lijuan
was hanging around the canteen,
was funhigh.
after that,
play-ed netball with gelin,shuxian,charmaine
funfunhigh man!
but weather was hot!
gelin,charmaine,vivian
shuxian,shaojun,lijuan
we won!:]
hohhos;DD
sj lijuan shuxian ended up doing.
the meditating thing!
so funny:]
in middle of parade square
after that,
went home.
walking that time.
i keep kicking leg highhigh.
thn lj and sj catching my leg!
hahah;DD
thn when lj talking to sj,
i kick.
hohohos;DD
hit her there=X ,
she say more pain.
cos got leg muscles:]
was laughing like siao!
they are afraid of my leg!
hohhos;DD
high all the way.
walk to ws,
walking in to banquet there,
saw dm.
was like!
me and sj ran away.
lj so cute and blur ,
walk somemore.
dm saw her,
sorry girl,
hohhos
slurpee is cool on a hot weather.
saw sabelle and jesslyn.
those two pretty ppl:]
highhigh day man:]

thanks for the translation of the letter,
i like you a little more each day
i said goodbye:]

(6:40 PM)

Sunday, March 16, 2008

had church today.
woek up at 7 plus.
miracle siol,
ahaha;DD
anyways,was funfine:]
after that,
emt up with mother and brother.
went swensens eat.
hohohos;DDD

nicenice.
CHILLI FISH PASTA!;D

if you dont like to see my face,
dont come to my blog.
simple as that.
i nvr force you to visit.
i know i know you:]
and thankyou ppl,
LOVE LOADS.
but this type of ppl dont need huanlo one.
dont waste your time.
guessing or scolding her.
not worth it:]

(8:52 PM)

Saturday, March 15, 2008

prettycute twinnie;
i love you mans!
stay prettycute and msut be shorter than me:]
stay CAL:]

went brother's baptism.
ahd over 60.
was rollerblading,listening music.
feeling was nice.
shall do it sometime again.

if you want spam,jsut spam.
i dont mind.

(3:49 PM)

Friday, March 14, 2008

met twinnie in the mroning.
reached ws at 9.30 sharp.
while she made me wait 45 perecious mins for her.
id some chem.
afte rthat,
wen totilet snapsnap.
took neoprints.
supersuper high man!
i lvoe you,twinnie
i need a scanner:[
afte rthat,met huiwen.
wen tvoiddeck do physics idiotic project.
blahblah..
update mroe tml.
i am lazy:]

(7:39 PM)

Thursday, March 13, 2008

boredbored,
somehow i jsut hate the rainy weather.
its so freezing.
and it cause people's mood from happy to weird.
i suppose you can guess my mood now.
thought abotu many things.
wasnt all that nice.
changes,i hate changes.
why cant things jsut maintain,
being unfeeling,saves you from pain and hurt

woke up at 1.11pm today!
thansk to yesterday.
slept at 4 plus,
but was usperusper high.had to get high in order nto to sleep.
so i wont pangseh:]
but it was gayhigh.
HARDCORE?!lol
hohohos;DD
was cool,never imagine myself saying those stuffs.
lets jsut say,
i shock myself all the time,
because i sitll dotn udnerstand me.
but i could say it was nice.
i was HONEST yesterday:]
and youyou lj me luh,
cool man!
you shock the world everyday:]
lots of homeworks to be completed.
tml will be chiong-ing day

sometimes i find myself weird.
becuase different times,
i think of people differently

(7:46 PM)

sometihng's wrong with bloggger and friendster,
i have a hard time uploading pics.
fustrating man:[
these are overdued photos:]
angshaojun,i upload le.
can?:]
I LOVE YOU,
MY SHORTER but PRETTY CUTE TWINNIE:}

(5:27 PM)

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

went out with mummy and brother
in the mroning.
ate breakfast.
afte rthat,
met merri 11.30 at west plazza.
train-ed to bugis.
hahah;DD
on the way were talking about many interesting things:]
off to shop.
walkwalk around,so long.
boguht clothes,
was nice man:]
hohohs;DD
let's do this sometime again.
stay-ed there till 3 plus.
raining liek crazy,
thn so funny,run like siao.
trian-ed to cityhall.
went peni boguht her skinnies.
afte rthat,
train-ed to tm.
took neoprints,its beeen long man.
bump-ed into bk and ann.
bus-ed home:]
I LOVE YOU,10 years of friendship sister:]

today's pics are horrible:[

(10:58 PM)

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

had cca today,
wasnt that bad,but was alittle pissed by conductor
shes bias.
went ws,
on the way chatted with strawnana.
thn chatedchatted at library
until her hosue there.
it was really nice luh,girl.
love you man.
and you super liaojie me can?
i love talking to you:]
after that,
spent day choppin gup the honeydew.
adn watching spongebob and kidnapped:]
was super amsued by spongebob.
hohos;DD
lame but funny.
kidnapped is interesting

(3:56 PM)

Monday, March 10, 2008

after went church yesterday,
rang-ed twinnie up.
bus-ed to ws.
met up with her.
as usual,went walkwalk
went mac chat,
chat so lnog,was fun.
but i sitll havent decided yet.
i very weird,hohos;DD
but i super confused now,
anyways,
went meet up with nizam and elvin.
bought sticks.

nizam is nice luh,

wear his soakysmelly shirt,
so that we can go arcade.
and angshao and him keep fighting to tap the card.
weird people!
hohos;DD
went arcade,was horrible.
i always last,actually first okay!:]
but was super high and fun,
screaming and sj ps herself.
hahaha;DD
after that,sat down.
thn so gay!
hahaha;DDD
bus-ed home,not exactly in a good mood.
angshaojun,i post the picutres.

(12:08 PM)

caught in between,
worse feeling ever.
its either this or that.
outsiders wont be able to understand,
terribleness

(10:52 AM)

Sunday, March 9, 2008

yesterday went out with
angel,archman,aidong:]
hohos;DD
was fun yeah,
went cityhall,
kinda lost=X
thn went suntec,met nizam,kelmond,selwin,elvin
spend whoeltime disturbing archman:]
went toysrus,
so paiseh luh,laughing like crazy.
and manymany things.
wanted to try the never zip thing.
thn archman go say
"eh selwin,you never zip"
thn all laugh,cos he dont have zip one.
so retarded luh,
hohos;DD
mood was spoiled when i got call from dad.
i wasnt angry or irritated by you.
yeah,
overall it was fun:]
the bustop was gay okay,
was surprising though

(9:17 AM)

Thursday, March 6, 2008

it takes alot to befriend agaybestie

today had sports day,
was pretty afraid.(okay very)
bus-ed 39 to mrt there.
didnt want get off one,
but thought late ler.
when i get off,i saw michelle and joelle!
stupid can?
so ended taking mrt.
hah!
it was rainign like shit!
first event-400m
i was winnign sick even before i ran.
didnt ate breakfast,no energy,want faint
over there,waiting to run.
got lightning,
gelin charmaine syabiqah were liek comparing heights,
haah;DD
they are nice.
i running that time,was so hard and tired.
thank you for giving me strength.
after that,
bestie i love you so much.
thanks for supporting me,and wanting to piggyback me.
i appreciate,i LOVE you:]
after that-200m
before that,i vomited.
the bread yeeteen ran 400m for.
ahaha;DD
actually wanted to drop out.
btu syabiqah and mr david are so sweet and kind,
and decided to run.
joelle,brenda,syabiqah are cool.
came in fourth for both events.
and joelle,dotn need feel guilty.
you deserve okay!:]
longlegs friend,you are loved.
winnign isnt everything,running with guys
was the best:]
had 4x100m,
wa sso fun and cool,
by that time.
i was highhyper again,but abit tired.
when we were waiting under the heavy rain.
the wind so damn strong.
my hands and fingernails literally purple and cold.
shivering like siao!
was scarign people.
and BRENNA TAN and MICHELLEANG is so sweet can?
they go hug me to give me warmth.
i lvoe brennatanshaowen and michelleangpeiwen.
we like squattign and hugging together.
sos weet;DD
was shocked by brenna,
omg,i love her.
haha;DD
hggged with rujun brenda and pearl others too.
omg, this peopel are so cool.
sweet people.
everyone there was like shivering like crazy.
daryl wanted to hug michelle!:]
so cool;DD
and we won 4X100m:]
two years le,
everyone did super well,i lvoe you guys
i love my teamates.THINKERS GOT SECOND.
today was cool,
i enjoyed huggging people under the rain,
and sheltering fringe with rujun.
hahaha;DD
and with my sweetgaybestie.
and huiwen you are cool:]
I LOVE THINKERS and SWEETFRIENDS
SPORTSDAY=DAY OF FRIENDLOVE EXPERSSING

sometimes its not about winning,
but abot the experience you have:]
lets skip school,tml i am sick.
with a cold anf feever
its like hot plus cold.
dont know to wear jacket or not!

(7:10 PM)