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i think my ezlink card is somehow missing.
just now,
dd so nicesweet
help me go sch find and lend me card.
so funny
and some tags disappeared.
think the latest ones.
refreshrefresh also cannot
replying by memory.
(8:40 PM)

mr chow left:[
so sad,took farewell picture with him
hahaa;DD
he so sweet,give us personalised clips
you rock,cool tcher.
lbh cannot be compared to you.
after that,
Studied after sch wtih dd,
till 6 plus.
walk to minimart there with mr dom and dd
mr dom,dont stress:]
you are cool,stay that way
tnh saw justin and co.
so cool!:]
lady got robbed,
they all chase after the indian guy!
so cool.
ALDEN.JUSTIN.CHEENAN.MARKUS.DINGCONG
the heroes for the day.
so super awesome cool,
mr dom was like sharing tml?
lol!gayness.
sososocool!
alden and justin heroes,no more troublemakers:]
so cool!!!:]
alden chased afte rthe guy,almsot catch.
ran from school there to fishing there.
thn,the indian guy go hide upstairs.
humji only.
the lady cry siol,
policecar came,
mr sam came out to wave hello to them.
hahaha
but so cool,
CORALITES ARE COOL,esp from 3/2 & 3/8

it doesnt take much to be a hero,
jsut soem courage and compassion:]
(7:47 PM)

(7:08 PM)

tml's appointment with doctor.
is getting scary.
idk why also,
but all of a sudden i feel scared.
thisbad feeling feeling,
my backbone deteriorated.
just feel frightened all of a sudden.
today was cool dancing:]

idk what shit you are sprouting,
you can just save your comments.
noone needs it,
not your problem can liao.
so shutup,please and thank you:]
(10:47 PM)

whats happening?
disappointed/pissed/confused.
this past few days hadnt been good at all.
i wa sso disappoitned with you.
wheni heard what you did.
why do you have to do that?
whywhy,
seeing you give me that attitude,
locked up the door,
it seems you are keeping many other things from us.
why
it really breaks my heart,
knowing what you did.
you've changed drastically,
i dont recognise you anymore.
the good and innocent part of you has disappeared.
walking under the rain,
tears flowed down subconsciously.
horrified i am still,
worses till,it seemed you didnt changed.
stress/exams upcoming
friendship promsied not to be broken,broke
lost gb,someone of whom i thot i could confide in.
how naive.
"why she like that one?sometimes she very weird"
moodswings.
how i wish it was as simple as that.
but my problems is smth noone understands.
its nto attention seeking,
if i could.
i would rather be a happyhappy person.
not self-pity.
andi its partly my fualt,
you've turned bad.
i am selfish and selfcentred,neglected you.
i'm sorry.
everything's on the surface.
just need to vent out once in a while.
somtimes i jsut cant control.
i know i spoil ppl's mood.
sorry,i make ppl worried and all.
but i jus tneed to,or else i will die.
there's never one month/week i nvr cried.
dailyroutine.
the feeling,
cna anyone udnerstand the sadness?
nonono,
ppl fail to do.
till i grow so afraid whenever ppl
says you can count on me,
tell your problems to me.
mummy,i'm so sorry i made you worried.
ii talke dso much bad things behind you.
i didnt know you wnet through so much.
work and worryign abotu us.chores.
i was so afraid you would breakdown.
when you told me.
get well soon,
i udnerstand the heartpierced feeling.
i'm sorry,
family is breaking up,
everything is crashing.
i feel so horrible,cant anyone udnerstand.
crycry,
i am sick of it.
i really cant take it anymore.
receiving your phonecall,
i jsut wan tcry.
i neglected you,i know.
now that you've turned bad.
i jknow everyday alone sux.
iknowiknow.
imsorry,


wrote smthfor dd,
spent alot fo time and thinking.
but threw it into the bin.
(7:12 PM)

(6:52 PM)

(8:19 PM)

yesterday was up-down day.
atfirst,it wasnt so much a nice month.
badmood,
walk-ed to ws with ang,kat,zhu, along with others.
everyone seemed to be in badmood,
esp you.
ask-ed selwin about smth,
realised you since pe already like that.
was it becos of seeing your friends able to play and enjoy
thn you cant?
or was it becos of other things.
thn,i realised actually i dont really know you.
like i thought i did.
i prob cant understand the pain of yours,
was suppose-ed to be a perfect day.
end up like that.
was devasted/confused/upset.
thn i cry again.
on bus,suddenly she called.
and scream at me on the phone.
that time,i really didnt want go home.
intheend,i still did.
wenthome,first thing.
saw bro sitting table,upset and all.
got scolded like shit.
she wanted take that bottle,
whacked me.but didnt
somehow,i just brokedown infront of her.
she saw,didnt say that much.
throw everything,
it did not seem we commit any grave offences
went toilet,
spent one hour crying there.
felt the excruciatingpain of a heart being pierced.
cameout,scodlscold.
why cant i deserve freedom and peace?
why dont you trust me?
you'd often insult and scold me
till i feel like i am living for nth.
you are seriosuly not helping.
maybe sometimes love is all need,
in school,
i have my laughs and joy.
whenever i come home,with you around.
seriously,
most of the time.
either i will be scolded or smth bad happens.
if i'd do well,
you dont care,
my exams coem also dontknow.
everything also say a waste of your time.
only result if lousy,
you scoldscold.
why cant you be encouraging?
i am seriously sick of everything,
gettign scolded,fight,
thn fine.
thn another of this cycle repeats.
its not fun you know.
i dont exactly always lead an
happy life outside/in school.
i sitll do have my problems,
and you say you dont look down on them,
but why cant i go study with them.
why must you restrict me?
just becos you dont know them.
you make home feel like just a house.
this problem has been there fo rmany years,
i am so tired of it.
i feel bad,but without you at home.
all i can say is,
i feel super elated and free.
everyone seemed to be in a badmood,
went down pass friend her clothes,
walk around downstairs.
pondering,
people have their problems.
they have their right to have bad moods,
anger,sad or whatever.
dont they know i have too?
i am also human,made up of flesh and blood.
one after another comes,
anyone knows how horrible it'd feel?
when its my turn to do that,
i am always wrong.
everything comes crashing together.
attimes,the impact created
is too heavy a blow for me.
i may seem not to be thinking much about it.
but one thing i know,
it will remain as a scar forever.
part of my growing up years,
i suppose thats one thing bad about,
having a good memory,
ask me anything,i wil rmber.
Even things that occured during k2.
quarrels people had,
evyerthing.
and the imapct'd always resort.
me to doing things i dont want to.
conclusion i have:you've never and will never change.
you've caused me to live in split personalities,
one person,two different lifes.
in school,
i may have my problems,
but i spend my happiest moments outside.
at home,
memory flashbacks arent that happy at all.
dont you ever understand my stress outside,
i do ahve other problems.
do you understand?
you jsut made them worst.
never there was any "hows your life?"

afterthat,
dd sms-ed and called me many times.
didnt really answer.
wasnt in that much of a good mood.
told me was dwnstairs.
thought was jokingjoking.
wanted pass me smth impt.
so choked up an excuse,
didnt really want to ask her.
so ask daddy.
went down,saw s & dd together.
s super auto,so funny.
dd pass-ed that smth.
was damn nice and sweet.
i smil-ed,and i gave my present.
dd almost fell,tht kuku head.
s,you are like supersuper nice a friend:]
you are really cool at what you do,
dd so damn idiotic sweet
but my present better.
happy1m.
you bring smiles to me,
i lead two different lifes.
the letter is dman sweet and nice luh,
i lovelove it:]
(7:14 PM)

ITS ONLY MERE HOURS BEFORE MIDNIGHT:]

dear,you are dearest to me,
(9:58 PM)

faced by setbacks/failures,
given manymany choices,
even if you'd make a wrong one,
remember you jsut have to
get up and continue walking.
persevere,at least you tried.
thats more impt


(9:27 PM)

rockon man:],
all you lack is only a tongue piercing
express how you feel,
one life,live it the way you should
dont regret what you didnt do



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