Friday, October 31, 2008

glad you finally understand some,

cause at the rate you were doing things,

i will die sooner/later.

guess now is better eh?

we'll find out soon,

(11:32 PM)

on the surface,
claims that you've forgive/forget,
but somehow deep in your heart,
you know its already been done/said.

didnt really regret going school today,
i think i am starting to like it.
just when its ending,
i beginning to like mr cheang:D
somehow,
i felt guilty raising my voice at you,
im sorry:[
but i just felt really irritated.
by the words you said,
my expression of love is different from yours.
i still love you,
and am thankful to you.
but i just cant take it sometimes.
and to you even though,
i said its okay,i dont mind,i understand.
actually,i dont.
and sometimes when i think about it,
i get upset,
even its words to mean well,
i dont like it,
maybe you cant see the effort i put in,
but i really got try to do my best,
but not always can.
i am not a superhero.
i need time to change,
lethargic man,

3 reasons people cry:

random.happy.sad
i neeed something to motivate me,
make me go crazy.
is it moodswing,how i know.
just feeling rather down.sick,i guess.
tml will be better:]]

(10:02 PM)

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

more pics tml,

too lazy

i love twinnie<3,

(6:20 PM)

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

lazy bum,

haiz,somehow in a state of helplessness.

motivations please?

i dont want to die.

<51

(11:11 PM)

Sunday, October 26, 2008

sometimes what may seem a joke to you,

may not be to others.

i found another interesting fact about myself,

i will try all means,to avoid people i am not close with,

cause i dont want them to talk to me.

except people i am super close with.

maybe if got other people can,

but alone never really possible.

so i rarely talk to people when i am alone.

cause i find it awkward.

unless with ultra superclose people,like twinnie:D

today it sort of happened.

my mind was thinking of how to walk off

escape without making it obvious-.-

and i purposely stood farfar,

in case someone see me.

okay,thats rather lame,

but thats me,

i dont know if its rather lame or what.

or act shy like what they say.

but i have laways thought,

or find talking to someone new rather fake/unatural.

like actact feeling,

maybe because i dont like people doing that to me,

naturally i dont like to do it to ppl.

i dont adore ppl asking me questions about me,seriously.

but,i guess its a mindset i have to change.

to others,it may be a piece of cake.

to me,it takes alot.

to be honest,

i dont really like to make friends,

hey,it takes alot to be my friend.

so if you're my friend,means you are really great/good/awesome!:D

i think you 'scold' well,

even though i hate to be scold,

but its rather true.

i will try,but to be honest,

somehow when you said,i almost cry.

and when i receive the sms,also.

i also dk whats my problem,

i cry easily.is it guilt?

i dk,who cares.

i am glad i am still as retarded/happy.

i have myself to entertain.

to be honest,

i was irritated by some people,

as in sometimes,

i also do that.

unintentional words,are soemtimes just irritating.

if you really dk me,

actually i appreciate you shut your mouth.

i wanted to post something special tod,

for 7 special people to me,

decided to postpone.

and olevels are coming, like what tchers are nagging.

i cant help but be afraid.

and i am still as lazy.

<55,

to people,dont ever mention the word slacker to me,

i dont know why i hate the word,

and i think i might blow my top if its said.

so just dont.

maybe i am one,

but jsut dont say luh please.

no direct/indirect meaning

KSW:DDDDD

(9:25 PM)

Friday, October 24, 2008

dreams.

theres this one thing,

i've always wanted to say/be,

my dream:is to be a world-known balletdancer

seems much of a stupid thing right?

or i can imagine your faces,

"like,you this kind?pui!"

but somehow,

i regretted giving it up,

should have believe in myself.

actually,now i regret also of no use.

cause i can never be one.

but i will always love and rmber those times

somehow,thinking of it.

it seems rather sad.

seeing shwos ppl dancing,

somehwo make me envious.

ohwell..

i should concentrate on learning my korean,

56<3 KSW

(6:47 PM)

get well soon,angshaoshao<3

you have changed manymany,

in terms of looks,now so cute.

but thn i know your heart still loves me alotmost,

cause i also,

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

me love you,

faster get well!,later monday cannot go your iceskate:]

(6:40 PM)

Thursday, October 23, 2008

i have the cool-est/shuai-est/irritating-est

brother ever,

one which i quarelled most with,

but never once affect our bond

okays,so miss doc. says i have a weak stomach.

sensitive to many things,

avoid orange/lemon/spicy/oily stuffs.

but hello,those are my favs.:D

gastric almost killed me,

so didnt really spoke much/home.

andand i am seriously bored.

and feeling yet sick,

i want go out eh,

deciding plans to do on monday,

probably bowling with peeps at safra.

and and i havent do chem,

its a total moodless thing,

and i have got to learn korean,at least some

cause i want to/mummy ask me to.

and mummy says her friend daughter,

studying at nau qiau end school le.

while i still have this stepup thing-.-,

i mean its not as if,we are a really good sch.

i :DDDDD korea

ps,ksw :] 56

(4:17 PM)

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

i think i am sick,

i feel like oh not good.

heh,feel like skipping school tml.

(7:17 PM)

somehow i kinda miss the olden days,

where everyone was happy& bonded closely.

i have decided not to interfere in the matter,

just shut my trap.

oh well,

if its meant to be solved,

it will be.

right now,i also have no idea.

but seeing you like this,

strikes such unspeakable guilt in my heart,

actually,i have to pay part of the responsiblity.

but,i think even if i had hanged on,

its a sooner or later thing,

i admire you for your level of tolerance,

anyway,

angshaojun had a major stomachache.

as usual,

we were both broke.

after school,head-ed to central makan.

thn,sabelle came.

even though,i not very close to you,

but you shld really eat more,

you very skinny alrdy:D

we were both fascinated by ang's flat stomach.

hohohos;DD

head-ed to ws,bused home.

and i dont understand how do chem.

i am lazy to even do my ss:[

finished watching bad love:D

so everever nice.

ksw<3,

go home only,sleep.

in the end,didnt go orchard.

i think it would have been real fun with them.

i mean sushi/movie,

who can resist?but i broke to the max,

msut save money go korea,

and cook dinner for brother.

did i mention?

shaojun's going geylang,*winks.

ps,korea:DDDDDD 57

(6:37 PM)

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

you dont have to know/ask who.

because time will tell

whether i am right.

and i will seriously earn myself a right,

to point a finger at you.

you'd better treasure everything you have,

because i will be there waiting,

to receive the moment you stumble,

oh and,

sorry if i make it seem like applicable

to any of you,

andand,

jsut because you better vocab,

doesnt you can anyhow use:D

seriously,time will tell.

(8:56 PM)

its those simple words/actions

that either lifes one up or

puts them down

oh man,i think i reverting to old times.

not a very good thing,

okayokay,must change.

i think my attitude is deteoriating.

i seriously need study also.

oh yeah,and doublebiking is so ever fun.

andand i will nvr forget redskinnies.

oh well,

today choir was rather stupid but cute:D

with joanne/chianhwee.

duh,seeing that tweety heng freaked out

jsut because she has one more blueblack.

can kill me,

hohohos,and of course.

with jasmine&fatin.

and conductor actually praised me:DDD
home with clarissa.

i am disliking stepup,

at the same time,

i am starting to appreciate/love

my classmates/friends more and more:]

(8:42 PM)

Sunday, October 19, 2008

somehow i think its time to stop ,
making myself feel great all the time,
i know it gets on people's nerves,
and im sorry,
i will try to stop,

(10:17 PM)

times passes so fast,

sometimes it seems so fast,

its only seeing photos like this,

you remember.

will we always be a superfunbig happy family?.

today was rather fine.

anyway,thank you mark.

for treating me,and coming:D

thankyou more tml.

ever since i came home,

been crying my eyes out,

the kd is super sad at the same time sweet,

but yeah at times,

i have to admit i am a very sentimental/emotional person,

i can cry easily,

i have a split personality,

one ,so strong,another just vulnerable.

i just want to set my life right now,

past is all so crap,

i realised smth,

sometimes i dont even know myself at times,

seems ironic,but yeah.

and i attitude today,

i felt guiltymean,i didnt mean it really,

but sometimes just gets on my nerves.

but over these years,

i found out something about myself,

i love crying,

i seem to always find reasons to cry,

i think thats my hobby,i feel really good when i do that.

but at the same time,

it seems not really

ps,korean dramas/songs are my <3

(9:58 PM)

Saturday, October 18, 2008

some memories,

are oh so sweeet

i've received the most belated birthday present ever.

thanks timothy:D,

so long still remember

the necklace is cool.

and im so loving my korean songs,

awwwww,<333

somehow,i wish to visit korea and stay there forever.

hohohos;DDD,

and today is awesome,

looking forward tosee you tml,mark:D

(10:46 PM)

Friday, October 17, 2008

cycling with peeps was lovey:D
double-biked was funny,
esp with joanne(major screamer)
but it was super fun.
thanks friends many<3
have more such things eh,
ang,you rock manymany.
badlove is ohhh...<3
hooked on to kd,so nice eh.
hohohos;DDD
and i missed the meeting,
super guilty,
sorry people,i wanted go de.
but in any case,today was awesome<3.

ps,kwongsangwoo is so :D

(9:42 PM)

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

over the years,you see people change

be it friends,family,foes,acquaintances

it might be for better/worst.

you might even,be unable to recognise them.

but,the most impt thing is

they once or are playing a part

in your life,

and will always be part of your memories.

got back almost all of my results.

i realised smth,

when ppl say their results are okay.

they do well,

so i hereby announce that,

i did not do okay.

however,in any case,

i'm still thankful.

i have to admit my both my IQ &EQ arint high.

IQ shld be quite low.

and i think i shld feel blessed.

to achieve such results.

i improved my sourcebased.

i got 20/25 for ss.

but essay is ...

hehe,

in any case,i think ima happykid.

i'll just have to work freaking hard.

even though,
think be a nurse need not be that clever.

still,wished to do well for my o's.

i am kinda happy for myself,

i finally have an ambition.

at least one,i think i can fulfill.

anyway,physics/math/amath is cannot make it one.

ohwell,

you wont want to know how FABULOUS i did.

i just hope to go korea,

enjoy and be so happy.

and im so gg to make a shopping list.

and write names,i want buy for.

later forget,

yay,results are almost out.

and daddy&mummy,

thanks for supporting me.

not angry about my results.

kinda encouraged me alot:D:D:D

and daddy,you were right.

crying/complaining

will never bring me good results,

or even allow me to retake.

whats done will always be done.

failure would always be another step for me

to work hard.

Ps,God im really thankful to you,i know you helped me:D

thank you for everything.

(5:42 PM)

Monday, October 13, 2008

nothing much to blog about.
well,i CAN wait for results.
i think i will be depressed.
its okay to wait,seriously.
well,prob staying at home

(11:46 AM)

Saturday, October 4, 2008

gabby's birthday was awesome:D
amaths is screwing me up luh.
so kinda skip cell.
was feeling rather or very upset.
mummy ask say dont go,
so i okay loh.
anyway,brother was also sick.
but amaths is really...
make me feel so super demoralised.
somehow thanks agus/boonkiat.
talking to you all,
made me feel better.
didnt know my bhb is so sought after.
hah,jkjk.
but sitll feeling like shit.
simple question also dk howdo.
but thank God,got you all to talk to.
not bad seh,so nice to me.
never give me present,butbother to talk to me.
heheh,thanks.

amaths/chem no time study.
haiz,screw it up again.
demoralised/depressed,stupid exams.
not as if i dk i stupid,made me feel worst.
ppl nvr study,still do so much better than me

rawrrrr.

(3:17 PM)

Friday, October 3, 2008

vivian:i have a sharp chin.which is unique.i love it,

it makes VIVIAN,just dont grow:D

trying not to blog much and study
be back realreal soon:DDDD
ima happy kid,
and rights,idk whats wrong with you.
seemed rather fake and unreal to me.
but you know what,
i wont let you affect me.
but no matter how nice you treat me,
deep inside,
im still rather cold idk what.
heh,who cares
HAPPYSMILE.
wheeehheee.
i cant wait to fly to korea and stay there for a lifetime:D,
lets just hope nothing props up.
and let me enjoy.and not be disturbed.
i'm so ever excited.
and i'm saving up for spree there.
i want stay there man!,
whooo i love korean:DD
even though i dont look like them,

but they are so way awesome:DDD

korea<3

well,probably skipping sentosa outing tml.

must study,at least try.

(2:42 PM)

sometimes its the fond memories,

that keeps you going on this wild journey life,

and when you finally realise this memories are the things that puts your face on a smile mode,

you start to regret not taking more of them.

even if friends are not friends,

family are gone,

you'll never forget them,

dear person who created camera,

you are really coool and awesome.

i guess just perhaps now or smth,

i have no idea what i am/you thinking.

seriously,

what i hear/see i different.

when things happen,

i am the one at fault,not just once,twice but always.

no comments luh.

perhaps just thinking too much.

i will learn to be independent,

must study luh.

rawrrrrr

and i miss my bangs abit,

but i wont cut ever:DD.

must change.

memories are always nice to remember,

even if the present is different now,

the past will never ever change

beign able to see you and your friends smile,

laugh together is perfect:D

(11:42 AM)