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(10:26 PM)

i dont understand.
your relationship
seem to get worst.
till he dried.
idk.
i see.
i feel so sad.
why must fret over such thing
such stupid thing
why
spoil relationship
over such things.
toht tml would be a good day
i guess was wrong
never right.
i jsut wanna cry.
dik what do.
(9:54 PM)

felt so freaking
stupiddumb,
at starign at math questions
so lnog,
still blank,
only complete one question.
i tried la,
can go bang wall la.
2 hours=1 question
how i gg survive olevels man.
my friends/classmates
are like freaking duper smart.
bet they have good time
making me feels tupid.
oh wait,
i am feeling like it now.
stupid ass.
my brain is like hollow.
nth is gg in
AT ALL
(10:35 PM)

(8:34 PM)

i truested you,
you lied to me
hwo could you.
i hate you
i hate liars
yuo betrayed my trust.
ihateyou
(8:53 PM)

you say we dont
care about your feelings.
but do you care about ours.
you think the best for us.
but everytime
with our words,
you leave a scar on our lives.
you scarred my heart so badly.
say failure,go die luh.
nv rthink of you
yah,
you poor thing.
what about me/him
have spare a thoguht for us.
say torture you.
how you expect
me to grow healthy in this environment.
your fights dont laast,
but i wont forget them.
idk what or how.
i cant take it.
you're not helping me at all.

i hate going home
with a fake smile.
wiping my tears away
pretending its all alright.
so i can prepare
myself for the next.
school was onc emy place
to escape
smilelaugh.
now i'm left with nth
(8:15 PM)

i feel so regretful.
waste my money,
i skipped lunch-dinner.
to buy.
yes,i not rich.
vivian,why are you so useless.
buy,no courage give.
you made me realise,
without me in your life.
you still live happily.
and seem to be even better/
i guess you dont need it
you dont need it
to brighten your life.
i freaking cried during
maths lesson.
i feel so upset,
living in this world
is torturous.
sometimes,i really dk
i try my best to be happy/high
i came school
with a smile on my face.
i try not thinking.
casting away those wild thoughts.
but when i left alone,
i just cant help
but think.
you're not even willing
to walk beside me.
sitting beside me
was a torture.i guess.
if it helps you.
i switch place with her alright.
if tht will make
you feel better.
mr faizal,all of a sudden
i feel like talking to you.
you made me feel better.
taling to you almost
made me cried
thankyou.
one day,
i'm just gona die.
idk why.
terry gave me bigger role now.
i feel honoured.
but stressed.
if i cant even live my normal
life well.
how do i know
if i can help others.
i really dk how.
i dont want to see anyone.
idk what to do.
i'm standing
on the edge of the clifff.
everyone does
is pushing me off it
or just standing there
waiting for me to fall.
i reallyreally dk
how to handle.
everytime i think
i can trust someone
at the end
i only come to realise
i cant.
and when i decide to
trust someone again.
the same cycle repeats.
gradually,
i lose trust&faith
in people.
idkidkidk.
i guess all my efforts
were for nth..

day by day,
i lose trust&faith
in our friendship.
sometimes,
i wish to close my eyes
i know i'm not a
good person.
maybe one day
just one day
some car would bang me down.

i've had enough,
of crying on the bus.
sick of everything
(7:29 PM)

a world filled
with weird stuffs.
am i dumb/stupid/idiot or
what?
heh.
(10:09 PM)

im a HAPPYHIGH kid:]
i'm back.
miss me eh,
i love my PAPA.MAMA.DIDI<3 size="1">hopefully,i wont moodswing
(7:37 PM)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=2RuDCC6W0KI
Goodbye
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I simpathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say
but goodbye

You deserve the chance
at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy
of Losing you is painful to me

(8:42 AM)

people who seemed/
claims they were upset.
offten ppl who are
always happy.
idk eh,
it seems so easy
for them to be happy.
rawrrr,whatever.
tod NDP wasnt too bad,
tried highing
wtih my darling babes.
didnt wanna think
during finale,
screamed till i wanna pee/cry.
it was a supernice feeling
screaming
like nobody's business.
under the rain
at the floating platform.
it was releiving i guess,
but tml sure got manly voice.
hidayat is back:]
trying best not to think.

somehow,i think i
dont like you
************
idont know why.
i guess i just bias.lame..
gave up on <3 le,
or whatever shit that is.
no matter whta you'll do.
i'll nvr go back to you
(11:45 PM)

tried my best yesterday.
i hope you see it.
i tried my best not to reject
your request.
becos i saw the look in your eyes.
and i tremember me of
how baqdly i treated you.
i'm changing.
i'm willing for you.
trying to be a good sister.
so please dont go astray.
mayeb you dont see the difference,
but i'm really trying.
i'm sorry.
for all the injustice i done to you
how i throw my temper
at you.
i'm a bad influence.
please be good,
i don twant anything to happen
to you anymore
dont hurt papamama
and my heart
anymore

readyourblog,
thanks my dear katherine.
i cried reading it.
i'm sorry.
i just really dk
how what
to handle my problems.
thank you for caring.
nvr expect succh things
to come out from you
i'm sorry
(9:50 AM)

tod was badbad,good
many ppl ask me why i sad.
it semmed obvious.
thanks alot
and asked me eh why you loner?
as in is there any prroblem
its my fault/retribution.
i dont deserve anything

whhywhy
tell me why,
why must you repeat
your mistakes overover again?
this is the ffifth-sixth time.
you want end up
in boys'home?
idk why are you like this.
you are not the person
i know anymore.
where have you been?
why must you do this?
why have you become like this?
is it because of me?
everytime they go work,
i with you.
yet dont care you
use comp,
or either shoutscream at you.
you ask me play scrabble
board games.
i always reject you.
claiming to be tired/lazy.
you call me,
ask me what time i came home.
i gave you stupid answers
i didnt treat you well.
i'm so sorry.
i'm willing to change really.
please go back.
i miss the old you.
i spent my day worryingtearing for you.
i'm really scared.
i will be there for you.
i'm sorry,i'm not a good s.
hate me for all you want,
but please come back.
i beg you..
i dread school/home.
daddy,i need a hug.
but i cant.
all i do,
is hide my tears behind those smile.

i'm sorry i made you cried tod.
you talk to me
i ignored you
i thot you angry with me.
i know you were smsing.
i really dk.
some matters i cant and nvr
tell anyone.
but i really feel like dying.
i teared dk how many times.
when i see you cry
i felt so guilty.
i brought pain to you.
i love you,twinnie.
but like what mama said.
idk how to appreciate.
i'm not a good friend
i'm a failure,lousy
in fact,i dont even think
i deserve.
when i'm gone,
i see a difference.
you so much happiersmiling.
i feel sad.
but i'm happy for you.
sorry for taking advantage of you.
irritating you
suaning you.
i dont deserve you.
i was really upset
thinking about wht you say.
indeed 4 of us drifitng.
i'm supersad.
understand the pain fo you
feeling torn apart.
i'm sorry.
at least for now,
yuo wont need to feel torn apart:]
you deserve and happier
with them one,
at least they'd treat you
better,
love you more,
hurt you less
stay happycheerful.
i'll remember you always

you,i let down.
i made you cry so much.
i deprive you of your
happiness.
everytime i throw my tantrums.
you tolerate.
you qian jiu wo.
dd is gone since 170708.
4 month,
thankyou
i reallyreally dont deserve.
like someone
who deserve better.
all the best with her:]
she will be xinfu one.
jiayoujiayou
all the times
i alguhed
bullied you
irritated you.
was nice.
you can live well without me.
its great to know.
you have great friends,
you dont need me.
now you can concentrate
on your friends:]
cast all your care
you had for me
to selwin,
he needs it,
hes a ncie guy,with a fragile heart.
from now on,i wont disturb
the both of you.
i dont deserve,
never appreciate
instead caused pain to all of you.
i promise to not bother
any of you anymore.
i promise.
sorry.
i'm selfish.
not asking anyone of you
to forgive me.
but i'm really sorry.

i'm sick of pretending.
smilling all the time
sometimes i dont even
knwo myself.
i feel like dying.
when i walk out of school.
sometimes
i wish a car to bang me.
i cant take it.
i had enoguh of crying.
(6:02 PM)

the moment you
chose to walk away.
i've seen for myself.
and decided they mean
so much more to you than me.
tht small tennyweeny bitchy thing.
you left me to go alone.
what you said were lies.
both of you just like to do this
do you?
walk off together.
leave me alone.
dont even bother to walk faster.
make me like idiot.
for nwo,i dislike youyou.
dik why.
first phone,145 fly.
secodn bag.
things jsut go so "well"
pissed.
i donttt know how to express.
was thinking on the bus.
i dont trust anyone
enough to tell them anth.
so what i lost my gb.
i thot there were others.
i used to tell her so many things.
talk to her.
those dadaolis.
all gone.
i hate it when ppl
tell you you can trsut them.
enough of the bullcraps.
i tried to trust.
i realllyreally did.
why would it seem to be my fault?
blame for not trustign anyone
and come complaining.
but its because.
i trust you,
i lost my trust.
i feel so stupid/dumb.
academically/others..
theyw ay they explained,
i know its easy for you all.
sorry if my dumbness
irriated you all.
i admit i'm dumb.
i'm stupid.
idkdkdk why.
your actions tells me
you had been deceiving me.
all along.
i feel stupid.
to even trust youyou,
tht i can trust youyou
i dread school,
i cant express what i feel.
idk how.
call me idiot/naive
maybe i am,
to believe i can trust anyone.
its time to step out.
perhaps i'm overlysensitive

ilovethem.
but theyhavemademesoupset
criedcriedcriedcried.
i'vehadenough.
ifitmeanthavinglessfun
butlesshurt
idontmind
helpme,

jh,i feeling like talking to you.
but i cant.
idk how to contact you.
maybe only you
can make me smile?(ihope)
(6:48 PM)

pisssed,you know?
PISSED.
whoever you who destroyed
my one month 1 day happiness.
you make me wanna cry
you make me upset
you make me scared.
you faster go take life up building,
and jump down luh(most prob me)
you shitty idiot,(most prob me)
smakc so hard for one.
heh,i want cry luh.
"oh the lcd screen crack,not udner warranty."
you see liao,
jsut say one line.
you think what,
funny or what.
waste time moneh petrol,
queue so long(7 mins)
you come tell me one line.
make me so "HOT"
anyhow,
ILOVEPAPA

treat me goodgood.
make me laugh,
though i ji sad diao.
in two years
first phone:working well,STOLEN by some idiots
2nd phone:sucky old,but can.love it.SPOIL
3rd phone:love supersuepr alot.baohu so good.SPO!L!

telling daddy,
i BAOHU so goodhao.
so tctc
still spoil eh.
nvr baohu also can last longer.
me:papa,why your phoen use so long,still nvr spoil?
papa:cos i nvr BAOHU ma(laughs*)
heh i ji tao sad uh.
not thinking about it.
repair costs a freaking 150 bucks.
go die uh.
there goes rebonding.
and ...
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
i warn you dont agitate me


(8:04 PM)

i'm veyr upset
veryveryvery
currenlty sueprsuper badmood.
so dont bother me.
stupid ass idiot.
rawrrr!!!!!!!!!
pissed off like
(5:14 PM)

actually i'm still at lost
of hwo i'm feeling now.
happy.angry.sad.neutral.
i know.
i'm weird.
how i blog is diff from how i live.
its just i'm too stressed.
drifting form my friends.
a sense of stranger feeling
is felt.
it seemed
we arent even friends.
idkidk,i hate tht:[

(8:48 PM)

you've make me dislike you.
i dont want.
didnt want.
i'm feeling so..
idk how to express.
cry?
idkidkidk,what to do.
nobody can understand.
(9:32 PM)

sometimes,
feel like going to a faraway place.
where you need not care about
anything.
just live life happily.
messed up.

sometimes i wonder
to myself,
why do you do this to me?

(8:38 PM)

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updats with more pics tml.
stay tuned.
bored,disappointed.
sleep:]







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