Sunday, November 30, 2008

the medicine was supposed to make me drowsy.

but it didnt seem to have any effect.

i guess i'm just too high today.

(11:52 PM)

I AM IN A FREAKING GOOOD MOOD :D

i dont know why
i feel so super free,
and korea isnt that cold now.
because of global warming and those usual stuffs.
i cant wait to ski and go the mountain.
i think koreans are coool:D
and i might meeet derek there!:DDDDDDDDDDDDD
i want to go shopping.
i hope it will be real fun,
and the tour people are nice.
and the tour guide is cute/friendly.
i want to be a kind person from today.
i want to try,convicted eh.
i am oh so excited,
yay!my korean mood is backkkkk.
i want to stay there longlonglonglong
and i think i cant take the 8 hours flight,
so i've decided not to sleep the day before:D
i sitll got to catch up with mr kiat on the interesting convo!
jigsaw puzzle!:D
60 days,suddenly became 16 more days.

HOW FAST,HOW COOL,LET ME JUST GO ENJOY IN KOREA.
and come back afresh,
to STUDY:DDDDDDDDDDDDD

i've only got a few hundred thousand won to spend.
thats pretty little,
cause korea is almost like japan.
but i dont intend to leave any cent behind:D.

i am happy because i feel blessed,
veryvery,
because of today.
thankyou everyone:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
come to think of it,

i'm really so fortunate to be able to go korea,

a home,

clothes,shoes,almost everything i want.

while some children in the world,

dont even dare to dream of those.

i will learn to be satisfied with everything,

because only that way,

will be grateful and always happy.

i must work hard,

study not because i have to,

but because its not a privilege everyone has

appreciate is the word.

some kids out there who are living in poverty,

probably a simple smile/hug,

can satisfy them,

so a person like me should be more than satisfied.

one thing i ought to know how to do:

"appreciate,give.because i am given to give"

christmas is making me think more,

plus today's sermon.

I FEEL SO BLESSED,

i have so manymany things.

I LOVE EVERYTHING.

i shall never grumble,

but live a fulfilling/impacting/happy life.

i will go visit those folks and kids soon.

16<3

(11:07 PM)

Friday, November 28, 2008

i am sick,quite very.

so sick till i woke up at 3.00am ytd.

and reply msg-.-

probably freaking people out.

my throat is killing me,

and i have been sneezing at least 10 times more.

and my eyes are red.

and i have rashes all over my body.

but still,

i went shopping today.

spent hundreds but very fun leh.

except the sneexing part/block nose.

went around orchard,

went with brother first,

was super pissed off by this group of people.

super act funny,step big.

okay,i think i am really dumb.

i took the stomach pain medicine,

thinking it was the sore throat.

thn,thniking the medicine is useless,

cause i wasnt any better.

until mum asked me-.-

i am very sick,
happier things :

I've a new ROOOOOOOOOM,

happy birthday tweety hengheng!

i will go find your TWEETY CLAN in korea.

and did i mention i saw this jimmy choo,

super cool super high heels,

omt,so nice eh.

i thought it was $179,

in the end it was $1729.

(11:39 PM)

Thursday, November 27, 2008

havent been blogging,

its like 18 days before i will fly.

i think i am excited,and i am not.

maybe because i am feeling sick again,

i have a weak system,

esp when brother ate so much,

and left three mouthfuls of porridge for me,

thanks alot.

yah,family sort of had conflicts today.

i think its just over some stupid things.

and i hate it,even if it last a day.

spoils my day,so i hadnt spoke a word,

since they came back.

i think i'm suffering from homealone sickness.

everyday,also alone.

as day come by,i dont look forward to going korea.

i have no mood for anything,iguess.

spent whole day packing my room.

even if you dont mean those words,

even if i seem like i dont bother about those,

i do deep in my heart.

i know what you mean.

and its starting to become a piece of fact to me.

i hate throwing tantrums,and attitude.

i feel so super guilty,

but sometimes i cant help it.

and i really try to help her,

but i think i cant,

while packing room,saw something.

last year bday present.

but still ever sweet,even if its different now

anyway,thanks kat.i think its super sweet:D

oh,and i remember what mum said,

i am seriously wondering.

if you're talking about everything,

nah.yes,comfirm.

because what you're asking,

is that something which is so hard to find/build,

yet so easy to break.

gahhhh,my mind is malfunctioning again.

useless,piece of thing

i hope i enjoy in korea.

(12:07 AM)

Saturday, November 22, 2008

cause i'm too confused/upset,

to blog.

i need to buck up,changechange is the thing.

that is/should be constant

(10:56 PM)

i reallyreally want update abbout manymany things.

my life is super interesting one:D

and i dont wish for my opinions of people to change,

because of what others say of them.

but it seems so difficult.

but i guess i was wrong about many people.

not as kind as i think they are.

not as mean as i think they are.

i think the stamps covering my eyes are clearing.

i neeeed fatin&her pictures.

but i'm not gg to say i will blog tml,

because i wont when i say.

holidays are passing,

i have to buck up seriously.

and i miss angshaojun alotalot,cant wait to meet her:D

and mum says she will buy me bag,

when i see nice one,

like so kind,i think puma bags are sweet:D

even mummy agrees with me.

so here i come man,

now,i want brother to come my school

(12:32 AM)

Friday, November 21, 2008

wheee,i'm back from camp.

miss my family,

and brother was elated to see me:D

i am having seriousserious

backaches,

and massive blueblacks.or bloodclots.

whatever,

very tired.

feeling sick.

elaborations,pics soon.

(3:32 PM)

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

today was out with dearest brother.

and i had an absolute fun time.

at WWW:DDDDD

even though last minute,

still had supersuper awesome time.

and i am still fair:]

early in the morning,

out with mama brother.

spent 80 plus on me,

mummy says,

she will never buy cheapo 30,40 stuffs,

waste money,

so easy spoil.

hahah,so funny ah.

i was like deprived,

but the foam pool was super fun,

i was the oldest kid there=.=

brother told me he had more fun time with me

than his friends.

like omt,so sweet.

cause i'm his sister,he like to spend time with me.

and i am freaking out,

because of sunday.

i dk what i'm stressing about.

one part of mind,is relaxing.

another freaking out like..

i love my brother:D

there's choir camp tml,

i doubt it will be fun,because of.

still deciding to stay or not.

cos i am feeling HOMESICK

i will miss papa,mama,brother.

and the school's toilet is -.-

and everyone's hesitating because of that.

i love my family,

i cant live without them.

and my bed,

and my toilet,

and my tweety bird bedsheet,

and my window that overlooks the scenery,

and my beautiful awesome looking yellow room,

boohooo,

and i am seriously FREAKING OUT,

i dont think i can sing.

so afraid to screw up.

i will miss home:[

(11:52 PM)

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

so i had a major quarrel with someone ytd.

gahhhh..

annoyed,very annoyed

(3:19 PM)

Monday, November 17, 2008

his mama should be veryveyr proud

so i've stopped watching kdramas.

in hope that i will study.

this little boy superduper awesome kawaii right?

his eyelashes are like freaking long,

and naturally curl up.

thn super cutecute.

and when he smiles...:D

watched him in surgeon bong dal-hee.

so cute eh,wheeeeee.

ytd mama told me,

you shldnt be so happy,you going korea.

cos the faster you come back,

the faster school starts.

so just enjoy your holidays.

ok,so what a way to spoil my excitement.

boohoo,next year olevels.

and i am not studying.

super disappointed in myself,

what to do leh,

tod is going to be busy day.

(8:10 AM)

Saturday, November 15, 2008

it was a high day,as you can see.

not all pics are up.

cause i am just that lazy to upload.

my nose is going crazy,

comes, and goes.

tissue paper i use is ...

till mama said "hey,we dont produce tissue paper leh"

and i finish the kdrama.

so super nice,

though made me cried so manymuch.

but i had to chiong it,

cos i dont have the mood to study.

boohoo,disappointed?

tod was a pleasaent&happy day.

sorry,derek,never go rb as we agreed.

30 more.

and i influenced mama&jy,

sent koreansongs to mama.

thn she told actually korean sogns very nice.

like awwww:DD

and i am getting a hang of korean

i find me changing more&more,

liking appreciating the right people,

with the right type of love.

and i grow to love myself more.

trusting the people,

with the trust they deserve,

loving the people,

with the love they deserve,

spending time with the people,

with the time they deserve:D

(11:27 AM)

Sunday, November 9, 2008

i was gg to save my pictures,

as in you know,

save it to use tml.

but forget,i dont see anytime i am without new pics.

oh and that day,

i was on the train.

thn came these 3 noisy,steppy,weird girls.

they stood infront of my seat,

cause the 'miss popular' was sitting beside me.

i had an LOL time.(inside)

cause they were gossiping/bitching.

so damnn funnny,

"that blahhblahh very fake..."

"isnt it obvious,she is...."

thn,all the chimchim words come out,

nah,its not bad words luh.

its serious chim english,probably approved by oxford.

and those if teachers read their essays,

will stand and clap one

thn like so funny,

say people,with such super profound ang-moh.

serious eh,i didnt understand a single word.

thn the 'miss popular' left.

shes probably the coolest among them,

but her 'sporty' attire was attractive.(secret)

so those other two continued talking,

i think something about walls?

super random,thn laughed so super loud.

thn sudd switch to yelllow colour topic.

thn what yellow walls,chairs,bag,shoes.

thn go super excited.

i wearing my m)phosis yellow slippers.

thn the skinny one whispered to the girl,

obviously about me.
like so NOT obvious luh-.-

thn they started going excited/laughing.

with all those profound ang-moh.

i was going to burst out laughing luh.

thn it occur to me,

i seem to do that before,

with lousier english of course,

and lesser emotions-.-

but i felt better,

and i dont think i want to ever do this thing again.

its like a live comedy

when i think about how different our dressings were.

and i was so thankful.

long slingbags/longskirts/longsocks/primary-sch like shoes/cmi hair.

phewwww,

moral of story:

DRESSING MATTERS ALOT,

AND IT TAKES ALOT TO BE A COOL RETARD

(10:02 PM)

TO MY DARLING-EST:

this is my brother,

cute/hot right?

me love him muachmuach:DDD

brother got new sony phone for bday.

but as usual,

no expression,cause he thinks hes cool:D

bought him a wallet.

choose damn long,but in the end dont care.

and i found out something.

daddy dotes on me more than him:DDDDDD

my birthday:he gave me $50.

brother birthday:he shared a $26 wallet with me.

but hey,he got a phone.

ok fine,mine was more ex-.-

mummy was like complaining unfair,

hah,tooo bad luh hor.

i still love all of you luh:D

and grandmama dotes on me most

of all the grandchildren:]

she bought me my favourite dried prunes/biscuits.

so sweet of her,

she likes them,but say nvm give me.

nvr give the rest of the grandchildren.

even though,they like more than me.

ohmy,so damnnnn sweeetttt luh<3

somemore,i like not filial,

felt guilty=X

oh and mama & papa,

says i going become DA FEI GU.

hey, i dont eat alot.

but i deserved to be eat,for all the things i did at swensens.

guess what i eat:

fish-in-a-jacket.

potato salad.

4 cups of coleslaw.

seasonal vegetables.

fried mushrooms

firehouse icecream.

banana crumble(serves for 2)alone-.-

mine you,i was alrdy having sorethroat.

on medication.

hey,thats not reallyreally alot,

not my full potential okay?

and today for breakfast.

i had three red bean buns/ice milo.

aft tht,bus-ed to katong.

walk to HLX restaurant,

ate century egg porridge/fried carrot cake.

where got overboard.

mummy was like,

you sure become fatpig,somemore always rot at home.

never exercise

i never eat lunch ytd hor,must make up what-.-

andand i am still sick.

but still can jump/leap/hop/crazy.

gahhhh,have been thinking many things recently.

that day,

went grandmama hse,

open her drawer,saw family portrait.

it was the first time i saw grandpapa's smile.

brother was like,

"we so long never see him,i miss him"
somehow,it make me want cry.

so long he gone le,but i miss his frowns/cold jokes.

i think grandmama doesnt says,

but she misses him alot.

this few days sick,

made me want cry more.

sometimes,sit on bus,

listen classic songs,can even make me cry.

i dont want anyone leave luh.

i dont feel very bad about it.

serious,i dont know how things were,

the atomsphere and all.

yah,i am a bad person.

its both-sided's fault luh,

in any case,

so lets be closer friends,

we both have spent alot of time together,

time plays a part,

so you cant expect us suddenly to have manymany topics

to talk to you all mah.

naturally,we will talk more,

to build better relationships.

so dont blame yourself/or feel bad luh.

dont anyhow,

sorry if i sound mean,irritating.

i think i am just gahhh,dont know what to say.

dont take it to heart.

i just hate such un-needed,childish,weird problems luh

of course i will try.

people will spent more time with people

they are interested in.

without time,

they will find less interests in the people,

and lesser interests would mean,

lesser time willing to spend on the people.

(7:48 PM)

Thursday, November 6, 2008

unglam shots.

i have no idea what jlk was doing-.-

have been sick past few days.

ytd,had fever,cough,sorethroat,headache.

eat like 5 diff types of medicine?

my voice came and go.

went around ws,

help mama find screen protector.

thn dont have.

talk to the shop owner,want die.

cause no voice.

first time,in my life i am gentle.

hahah,cough like funfair.

anyway,

sentosa was funnn,

too bad couldnt sit the thing.

but verrry fun,sweet:DDDDDDDDD

love you people:

jlk,be happy,

i never post your unglam shots:DDD

i am kind right?:D

<37

(9:24 PM)

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

my childhood close friend,

seeing your post,

i cant help,but cry.

i have no absolute idea,in any case.

you have to be strong.

i am sorry if i treated you as a stranger.

its only now,

i realised how selfish,insensitive i am.

i am sorry,i didnt even seem to care for you.

now i think i know why he called me.

<39

(2:21 PM)

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

i am guilty,freakingsuper,absolute.
is it a good thing?
at least mean i still have feelings,
but still guilty,
awkwardness is the only hindrance now.
anyway,i should know it will come down to this
someday,sometime,somewhere.
guiltyguilty,
booohhhhhhooooooooo

(10:44 PM)

lazy blog much,tired eh.

especially that stupid twinnie of mine

wishes me to plan for her birthday,

what to do eh?

:DDDDDDDDD

i love mr cheang alotalotalotalotalot<3

i finally understand circles,

last time really clueless,

got most of it,except some.

just practise.

i am rather satisfied with myself today,

studied for about 1 hour plus,

thansk to daddy/icecream.

i lvoe eating raspberry,especially on cold days.

and i am super nervous.

found out have to sing on 23 nov,

understudy,but i feel the nervousness.

and i sitll cant wait for koreaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

<40.

mummy must be proud of me,to see me study.

while most ppl are enjoying.

i am starting to love studying:DD

and mr cheang said i improved,

last time honeymoon,but now improve.

so happpyyy:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

andandand i am still suepr freaked out
what if i sing out of tune,

or sing too soft,

or break voice,

or roll down the stairs?

(4:38 PM)

Monday, November 3, 2008

and right now,

i am so tired,the day seems so long.

woke up super early tod.

6 plus,got ready,

8am- rb at prp

9am- shopping at ws

9.30am- home

11am- breakfast

11.10am- lunch

11.30 am- physics

1pm- korean lessons

that pretty much sums upmy day,

i love shopping,evenif its grocery kind.:D

and i've got to rest,

i am tired.

but tod was awesome,

the air is so fresh,

at least i did some things i consider meaningful.

never learn much,

but i still did.

lazy to upload pics:[

(1:34 PM)

i should be sleeping early,

in order to wake up early tml

for 'school':D

diedie must fulfil my tasks.

see you like that,

i feel guilty eh.

but like what you say,

you're ironman right,daddy?

ohmy,

i just love all of you more and more each day,

and

i must study luh,

heh,let's selfmotivate.

i still cant wait for korea,

but still,a lazy/dumb person like me

can never succeed,

msut change eh:

and jsut now outside lanshop,

wl,this 30 plus uncle,

come attitude us siol.

wah,you think you still young&cute ah?

go buy mirror and see first luh,

dont have,i sponsor.

sorry,we block your way.

but we also never say anything.

'if you all want say anything,say louder,so i can hear'

ear problem loh,

still walk back.

actually,i dont blame you,

you got qd face,i pity you also.

please respect others also,if you want ppl respect you:D

tod,i am in a goodmood:D

dont entertain step cabs.

hey,besides,forgive&forget?

dont worry,i will always remember you,uncle.

i dont bear grudges,

but one thing bad about me:

i have a superultra good memory,

i remember manymany things,

good/bad,

ever single quarrels/happy things.

bad/good comments ppl say of and to me.

even if its not intentionally.

something i cant really do about.

hohhos,koreakorea

40<3.

pics tml kays?

(12:05 AM)

Sunday, November 2, 2008

as the day draws nearer,

i feel so excited,

korea<3

and yeah,i should study too.

i hope i will,

i am oh so excited,

no more school,but still got cca

todays moood:currently super happy(random)

i feel like leaping/skipping

when i walk:D

and i didnt go cg ytd,

cause was rather sick,

felt guilty.

i guess later i must try to talk to people.

but today should be of no problem.

i am in a happy-high mood tod.

smilling all the time,

ever since i woke up.

hopefully nth spoils it yeah?:]

please let me adore you in freedom:]

43 more days

(8:53 AM)