Wednesday, February 25, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,MUMMY:]i think this picture is so sweeetttt:]
snowing eh,
thank you for bringing me to korea
dream come true.
even though we seem to quarrel almost every day.
but i think its our way of communication.
lols.
quite fun sometimes.
guess what,
tod's first part of sch was rather boring.
double math/science.
and was reflecting.
so was unusually quiet.
afterwhich,
dte subway,
with dearest sherry,amanda,elyse.
which they were so crazy about those french kids.
and fighting on who the guys waved at.
lol
thn,elvin came.
ok,i didnt study much today.
guilty,
rain was so heavyheavyandheavy,
serious,
my sweetsweet sherry lent me her umbrella:]
so cool hooking them,
walking together.
hah,
eheh,i kind&nice right?
heavyrain,one umbrella also will get drenched.
but i still shared with you,
kindkind right?
cant help it mah,you look so poor thing.
lol:]
somehow,i think its rather ironic.
people just get the wrong idea.
i was soaking wet,while everyone
looked at me standing in the bus.
it was almost like korea during winter.
but not so much.
so fun,because a little water makes it fun.
i'm such a kind soul.-.-
i will study soon,
i will study soon,
i feel so thankful and happy,
cause today is a happy day.
my mummy's birthday leh.
thankyouGod,somehow.
hah,i love you loads.
Monday, February 23, 2009
mummy's birthday approaching.
i have no money to buy:[
whatever i make is going to turn bad,
so how.
gosh,i really feel guilty.
cause i just shouted at her,
for screaming at me.
i feel real upset now.
God,help me please?
:[[[[[[[[.
and i dont like you luh,yes you.
argh:[
today is the most guilty day ever.
becuase of my advice,
i made someone cried.
i'm so sorry.
to you:
i'm so sorry,
but from how i see,as a honest friend.
i think its impossible to even return to the past anymore.
even if you do,
things would be so different.
i think getting real upset over ..
is just a waste of your tears,
and i think the day you look back.
you'll probably laugh it off.
dont think so much,
i guess the reason you're feeling like this,
is because your heart is feeling empty?
i think that person doesnt even deserves to be in there.
no matter how sweet/nice,
it can never compare to the one who loved you,
when you did not even know him,
who even died for you,
not forsaking you,
never giving you empty promises.
since things are already this way,
dont care/think,
thinking too much makes people go real crazy.
but i seriously am feeling very guilty.
sorry,
it takes time to forget,
move on,carry on:]
i just want to tell you,
if you have problems,
you can tell me.
even though i really cant stand people crying,
because i dont know how to comfort them.
but you can tell me:]
i love you kays?be happyhappy always.
even though,
you know what i'm talking about right?
uhyes,
i very countrybumpkin one,
i think saying 'iloveyou' to someone,
takes alot for me,
because my family doesnt do that one.
so abit weird for me,
unless that person is supersupersuper
important/special to me.
so anyways,
cheer up,and smile.
dont think dont think.
and to TJY:
happy bday,
i wanted to sms you.
but well,i overslept.
you must be saying qianda,
as always,
sorry for not making to your celebration.
like what i say before,
me and you are like fire/ice.
you are like so expressive/passionate in expressing your feelings.
emotional kind,
watch comedy movie,
also can cry until like sobbing.
if i were there,
i think i would be so no comments,
while i'm like coldcold,
dao type,
but i think its cool somehow.
oh well,
happy bday still.
hope you enjoy your manhattan.
too bad,i'm also broke to eat there.
yah,unlike that vivian toh,
later thn sms,
sorry luh,
probably tthe last one to sms you,
okay,tod's tution was rather unpleasant.
because one of us
was apparently very
pissed off at the teacher.
dont so angry like that kays?
sudd,so quiet.
very scary,
actually i know i dont need worry about you ,
because tml,
you'll be fun,happy,jumping,laughing.
what a good thing,
to be simpleminded sometimes,
happy always,
:]
tod is a super guilty today,
i feel alittle weird,upset
but it's only temporal right?
i feel alittle weird,upset
but it's only temporal right?
yes,i pray and hope.
dont think:]]]]]
wheee,
perhaps,yes?
whatever.
bleah:[
Sunday, February 22, 2009
so contradicting,
i heard about someone's scary problem.
i feel so sorry for you,
hearing it also scares me.
idk how to help also,
only praying for your recovery.
if i were you,
i would have gone crazy.
seriously,
i feel so... now.
my mind is filled with.
hows.whys.whats.
plus amaths,
my mum wants to hog the comp now.
now my talking partner,
will be gone.
no more blogging for now.
phew,
bleahbleah.
jiu ming,amaths.
i feel like crying luh,
fail again as always
trekking,
was happy and free.
blankness ,
it was supposed to be fine.
when it was sorted out.
but now,its just.
help someone?
there's testS
and i cant study,
ok,i'm lost for words and optionless.
nvm.how,
someone please scold me,
to wake me up-.-
Saturday, February 21, 2009
tpjc/trekking/dte/home.
i want to ask you something,
merri,faster online.
i need to talk to you.
boohoo,
gosh,i feel upset.
i think i'm going crazy.
and i hate buying presents for people.
because i dont know what to buy.
and it kindof pisses me,
when i walk around aimlessly.
ok,i think i really am stupid in doing this kind of stuffs.
if i dont find your present,
blame me.
but i really tried my best luh,
there's only left tml.
i'm not a very nice/sweeet type of person.
so yeah.
i'll try
Friday, February 20, 2009
whoo,this picture is like ages,
unglam
but yeah,miss m.
thanks so much for accompanying to eat just now.
when noone seems to be free.
i think i feel so relieved.
after talking to you.
because well,we have common topics.
and it's been long since i talked so much with you.
i seriously feeling better,not great.
but really better,hi friend.
but really better,hi friend.
at least you're like mostly free.
i think i will miss you alot when you fly to canada.
there goes my 24/7 friend.
at least i have someone to talk to about it.
well,the only one for some things?
and also reminiscing the childhood we spent
so far,yet so short.
finally everything
i never really expressed or said out,
i told you.
i feel better,:]
i feel better,:]
thankyousosomuch.
love you alot.
ranting to you was so nice,hees.
new pictures to be taken(soon?)
i feel goodgood,dooodoo
rmber,you have me,
and i have you:]
we have each other,whoo.
11 years?<3
Thursday, February 19, 2009
hi there,
its yours truly again.
the thought of having choir tml,
is so really horrible.
serious,it spoils my beautiful day.
hi joanne,you have a friend here.
lol,i'm bored.
i think whatever i studied went in and out.
cheers for me,
rightright?
am i supposed to go choir,go out,go run?
but most of all,
i feel like skating.
today pe was rather no comments.
stupid,i feel so insulted.
yah,after myself not to be so sensitive,
i still cant help it.
nvm
i'll get over it.(soon)
oh and ytd,i woke up,to plug back my phone charger.
and i got electric shocked.
i was half conscious,
i did a very funny thing,i held onto my metal table.
so that the elctricity will be conducted to the table.
talk about physics.[?]
i feel so dumb,
imagine me gripping my table leg.-.-
i was half asleep.
so IQ half lower,and abit weird.
but pain leh,
okay whatever.
choirchoir,if not cca points,
trust me,i wont take any step into the ava room.
saturday tpjc?
even worst,
let's just pray and hope tml will be a
beautiful,sunny day
with noone to spoil it.
persevere,persevere,persevere.
speaking of which,
my brother's having a school run at brp tml,
how fun,
while,i will be having cl remedials,
choir[?!]
jiayou,bs much
forget everything i ever said,
because they are simply a waste of time.
lets just be simple-minded,
i think sometimes i think too much,
till i get overly upset-.-
the weather's so good,
how i wish i can appear at the park skating now.
what a beautiful sight it would be.
but going alone is just..
no thanks.lol.
so lets just be a goodkid and study at home.
i'm trying my best.
okay,dont think about anything.
worry causes you to be upset.
dont think:]
somehow,
right now,inside me.
i wish to express somethings i feel.
but i simply dont know how to say.
i dont know i feel.
oh well,everything's always about me.
someone was touched by my post?
oh well,
that seemed rather shocking to me.
i think i have so many things to complain about.
ending up neglecting the grattiude.
today is the only day
our family gets to eat togther as a family.
i feel happy somehow,
hees,
to me,i dont think what people thinks
really matters,
cause is me and my heart,mind.
nobody else knows it better than me,
except God,of course.
even if it dwells,
it maybe abit difficut embarking on this journey,
but i want to get rid of it.
i think i'm winning.somehow.
yah,okays
jiayou,
i will be back soon.
dinner
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
crap,i didnt do any hmwk-.-
is that a sad thing,pretty much.
but i'm gg to either study later,
or sleep early.
cause i have this feeling i going to fall ill again;[
because i'm losing my appetite again.
yah,i threw my dinner.
waste food,what to do.
no one want to help me eat.
speaking of that,
time to iron my uniform,
i'm so going to cut down on my computer.
try first,thn must do.
i begin to like studying,oh great.
since when did it ever last.
today's post is not a nice post to read,
so dont read,if you're bored easily
me and my korean craze.
i wonder whats hidden behind those glittering eyes
of yours.
i wonder whats hidden behind those smiles.
genuine?
beneath that living being,
is there a broken wrecked heart?
even though,
i find myself failing to discern if
what you say is factual or so.
but somehow,
i know deep in my heart,
it crafts a desire in me to want to know you more.
to help you,
seeing you smile by the ridiculous things i do.
it somehow warms my heart.
in actual fact,
i dont really care if its true.
hearing whatever you said to me,
makes me feel so weird on the inside
gazing at the vast and magnificent skies,
with breeze cool on the skin,
the skies lost no blue,nor did the trees lose their greenery.
just at this depicted scene,
most would feel a sense of freedom and happiness
seeping into their hearts.
somehow it seemed alittle different today,
it was more of a.
sense of blessedness,to be able to sit there
undisturbed,at peace
and witness the wonderful creations.
there i am sitting,
perhaps many others in the world,
are in deep agony and misery.
dying,sick,crippled on the inside.
breathing into the fresh free air,
a sense of longing to help others,
to love,help seems to penetrate into my mind.
not to mention,
thankfulness filled my heart.
living in a beautiful garden of flowers,
how many times have we tried all means
to find that weed,
so as to satisfy our wants for complaints.
even if so,whats done would be done.
hourglass sand would never be able to flow upwards,
always being heavily burdened
by yesterdays' regrets.
acidising it with the problems that would occur tml.
a questionable choice
i guess the sweetest satisfaction lies,
not in accomplishing soemthing for yourself,
but helping others to do so.
'if your self concern is to look after yourself,you'll never find yourself"
if today were my last,
would i love more,give more,forgive more?
like its a pretty obvious answer.
i think i find it rather abnormal for me to write out such stuffs.
but somehow,
today seems to be a simple,yet a significant day,
while i'm enjoying my music here,
eating my meal,
there's probably one kid dying out there.
i feel absolutely fortunate,
so much as there never seems to be an ending
to the things i want to give thanks for.
even though i dont know if you read my blog,
but i think you're right,
you're right,i'm a very unreasonable person.
we belong to the same category.
i think i get frustrated at my childish acts,
it makes me feel irritated.
seriously,
but i cant really control it.
lol?,whoo finally.
a less solemn tone?
its ok,i dont think people even bother to read up to here.
they probably bid me farewell,
after reading the third line.-.-
for that,i think superficial or not?
i guess its not for me to judge,
well,what if one day dad just leaves me,
without bidding farewell,
i certainly dont want to regret.
i think he is the person i love so much,
and feels so much for.
at the rate he smokes and slogs,
i get so worried and upset,
my dad,is almost be the one
whom i confide most in.
becuase i guess he understands and
really is interested in my life,
and makes me laugh like nobody's business
by his cold jokes.
and i'm never tired talking to him.
our quarrels arise only because
he cares for me,and it lasts one day.
and we forget everything after that.
one day,
i'm going to write a compo about my best daddy in the world:]
i wont allow you not to hear about the greatest
thing in your life,
my heart seems infatuated with such
my heart seems infatuated with such
grattitude all of a sudden.
somehow,
i think i've neglected the people
who love me,care for me
so much than i do for them,
yah typical me,
submerging in my own world,
crazy,even making ppl apologise for reasons,
which are obviously my fault
nothing to do with them-.-
gosh,i miss my grandad.
i could almost sense the grief in her eyes,
when she looks at the pictures.
this is going to a sentimental,
boring post?
oh yah,justhink that someone hacked into my account
plus my english is c.m.i
i just feel so..
well,
the people who think they are the most pathetic,
unfortunate people in the world,
will find those who are less fortunate people,
while the less fortunate will find people who are even
less fortunate than them.
the list can go on.
duty calls,for change?
sorry to bore you,
but yes,today's post seems so unlike me.
i should start to think more.
you're not far,
not even a call away,
you make me feel happy,
when i get upset by somethings,
because i know i have you
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
i'm a good kid.
i TRIED to do my hmwk,
but i somehow feel guilty not going to
tim's bday celebration.
but i was real tired.
i'm sorry yo,
but happy bday:]
so yeah,this is the ski mountain we went.beautifullikewhoo.
i kinda miss the no stress/play/snow life
in korea.
i have so many things i want to thank God tod:]
teehee,
yah,you rock:]
seriously,thankyou.
yeah,but i was sneezing so many times tod.
i think i'm going to be sick.
and mum is horrified by my double eyebags.
more sleep.
but she's kinda happy with me this few days
:]]]]]]]]
hi korea,i will be back soon
Saturday, February 14, 2009
HAPPY WHITE DAY,
at least thats what koreans call.
back from heats,
ohgosh,i'm so exhausted.
and for 4x100,we almost beat our record.
but dont worry kids,
we'll win one:]
heees,
4x400,oh wells.
we just need to train more:]
i found out a new fact.
isa can run,mr rubberboy.
lols,thinkers' girls rock,
whoo cool man!
i felt so sick,
after running consecutive relays,
but i think we still rock,
yesyes,i was soso sick
mac with brenda and rujun.
mac with brenda and rujun.
hees:]
and the orange juice cost me $2.95!
lols.
HVD(happy vivian day)
what a fun day,
Saturday, February 7, 2009
hi,
so i'm better now.
but i think smth's alittle wrong with my system
now eat alot,
makes me want to puke.
but its my old usual food amount leh.
oh and i think
i came to a conclusion:
"i'm allergic to mushrooms"
is that even possible?
no idea,but mushroom are :]
so they get covnerse shoes,
welcome to the club ppl.
yellow highcuts?anyone?
lol.
nah,cause i'm just too special.
i was high.
i was high.
and poor zhihao,i'm so sorry.
hhaah,sadist?
i humbly apologise and thank these 2 ppl here,
thank you tjy and cbk,
for smsing me.
and sorry cbk,for not replying.
lol,dont angry-.-
my msn account is crazy,
my msn account is crazy,
so created new one.
which is ...
anyways,
i miss korea like !!!!
the cold weather,eating icecream while winter,
the hotsprings,
the fun of breathing into the air seeing smoke.
taking pictures.
and my original strawberry milk,
super nice.
walking out of the hotel
into the cold air,so cool.
being super courteous.
always bow.
boohoo
Friday, February 6, 2009
i cant really get to sleep.
yay,fever subsided.
but i still feel like vomitting.
and now sudd, my eye is red and swollen.
ohmy,how scary.
yesyes,after so many times.
i still cant figure my allergy-.-
because i always forget what i eat.
heats on valentines,
this year is relay time.
i hope i wont be sick.
but right now,
i feel real sick
i finish most of my hmwk.
rest is dont know do.
yuck,i feel like vomiting.
i want go heats luh,so boring.
but the doctor say bukeyi,
i had a weird conversation with the doctor.
vthm:"tml i got heats leh"
doc:"so you want to skip?you dont like sports right?"
vthm:"no,i like,tml okay,can run?"
doc:"no,"
vthm:"so if i run, i will die luh"
doc:"hmmm,no?the virus go your heart,
your heart will stop,thn you will stop"
your heart will stop,thn you will stop"
idk the way she say,seems so funny-.-
oh yah,
you all kind to sms me:]
esp my sherry,call me somemore.
i think i will look skinnier whne i come back sch?
no appetite.
ytd was fun,
skating with my sherry and charmaine.
until tampines there.
i think it was short,but fun.
my two bestbestbest.
i feel like sleeping now,
its a waste of time-.-
somehow,i feel happy now.
idk why
just a little upset and moodless.
because i feel sick.
boredbored.
and today's weather is cold.(?)
i'm like wearing a jacket,
i'm like wearing a jacket,
i'm just wuliao now,
i'm rather bored now,
cause there's no one online to talk to.
almost my whole family is sick.
dad is at home sick,
with fever like me.
mum is also sick.
but she's like 24/7 on the phone,
receiving calls from the interviewees
how coincidental.
i've learnt something today again.
thanks alot.
there are only 4,
the rest are just.
bfntl,yes you-.-
Thursday, February 5, 2009
i am sick,high fever.
goign to see doctor now.
boohoo,
omgosh,the heats tml
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
today is a happy-day.
i did well for my matrices test.
yah,just a test.
but for a supe rmaths noob who never really passed before.
great achievement.
thankyou,God soso much:]
i am so grateful.
aft sch dte
with my sherry,amanda and elyse.
funny and cool eh.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
i kinda dislike this,
but i think im not the only insane one in my house.
not i make you angry one,
thn i also implicated.
siann,always like that one-.-
i'm trying to sound as cool as possible.
crazy.
petty.
bleah,
you just made me angry.
i have nothing to say,seriously.
whats wrong with you?