havent been blogging recently.
nothing much to blogged about either.

i decided to blog about me.
i am someone with a photgraphic memory,
i can rememeber everything you ask me.
i dont bear grudges,but i remember them.
even from kindergarten.
i remember every fight,laughters i had people.
i have serious attitude problem,
moodswings and all.
i find myself hard to understand,
in fact i dont understand myself at all.
i can jsut chnage my mood,
unpredictable,i often wonder how my friends tolerate
my attitude problem.
i can be as high as you can imagine,
and as low as you cant imagine.
one thing i really hate is:
i dont forgive people easily and i dont trust people easily(in fact, no)
so i dont expect them to trust me easily too.
i have wonderful sweet friends,
i am not emo at all,
i am just weird,
i often quarrel with my mother,
and big fights,
i dont deny some part of it was my fault.
sometimes i wish i have STML,
because i would remember whatever people say,
the words they used to hurt or insult me.
its just intact,
i am not a good person,not a good friend,not a good family member.
i hate it when people lie to me,
that i cannot tolerate the most.
i dont exactly trust anyone,
and to you:
i am quite confused now,so i dont think i can give a soon answer,
i am sorrry,you might as well dont need to wait for that answer,
becuase i dont even understand how i feel.i am seriously confused,
sometimes i really want to say yes,sometimes i really dont because i dont want to regret it and hurt people's feelings.i think i've hurt enough people's feelings,and i cant brign myself to trust peopel easily,i dotn know why.
maybe because i really experienced alot.that i lose trust,to trust people.
i guess i just dont want both to regret,
and both end up all hurt and yah,i am weird..i dont mind if you hate me
for being awfully mean to you.becuase i think i deserved it.
thansk for always tolerating with me,i know i am like shit. i am not nice in anyway
i am sorry,
i am also someone who adores crying,
becasue its my way of letting out my problems all out together.
without needing to say anything.
i am sorry to people out there,
if i've offended or hurt you.