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whats happening?
disappointed/pissed/confused.
this past few days hadnt been good at all.
i wa sso disappoitned with you.
wheni heard what you did.
why do you have to do that?
whywhy,
seeing you give me that attitude,
locked up the door,
it seems you are keeping many other things from us.
why
it really breaks my heart,
knowing what you did.
you've changed drastically,
i dont recognise you anymore.
the good and innocent part of you has disappeared.
walking under the rain,
tears flowed down subconsciously.
horrified i am still,
worses till,it seemed you didnt changed.
stress/exams upcoming
friendship promsied not to be broken,broke
lost gb,someone of whom i thot i could confide in.
how naive.
"why she like that one?sometimes she very weird"
moodswings.
how i wish it was as simple as that.
but my problems is smth noone understands.
its nto attention seeking,
if i could.
i would rather be a happyhappy person.
not self-pity.
andi its partly my fualt,
you've turned bad.
i am selfish and selfcentred,neglected you.
i'm sorry.
everything's on the surface.
just need to vent out once in a while.
somtimes i jsut cant control.
i know i spoil ppl's mood.
sorry,i make ppl worried and all.
but i jus tneed to,or else i will die.
there's never one month/week i nvr cried.
dailyroutine.
the feeling,
cna anyone udnerstand the sadness?
nonono,
ppl fail to do.
till i grow so afraid whenever ppl
says you can count on me,
tell your problems to me.
mummy,i'm so sorry i made you worried.
ii talke dso much bad things behind you.
i didnt know you wnet through so much.
work and worryign abotu us.chores.
i was so afraid you would breakdown.
when you told me.
get well soon,
i udnerstand the heartpierced feeling.
i'm sorry,
family is breaking up,
everything is crashing.
i feel so horrible,cant anyone udnerstand.
crycry,
i am sick of it.
i really cant take it anymore.
receiving your phonecall,
i jsut wan tcry.
i neglected you,i know.
now that you've turned bad.
i jknow everyday alone sux.
iknowiknow.
imsorry,


wrote smthfor dd,
spent alot fo time and thinking.
but threw it into the bin.
(7:12 PM)