Thursday, July 17, 2008

the moment you
chose to walk away.
i've seen for myself.
and decided they mean
so much more to you than me.
tht small tennyweeny bitchy thing.
you left me to go alone.
what you said were lies.
both of you just like to do this
do you?
walk off together.
leave me alone.
dont even bother to walk faster.
make me like idiot.
for nwo,i dislike youyou.
dik why.
first phone,145 fly.
secodn bag.
things jsut go so "well"
pissed.
i donttt know how to express.
was thinking on the bus.
i dont trust anyone
enough to tell them anth.
so what i lost my gb.
i thot there were others.
i used to tell her so many things.
talk to her.
those dadaolis.
all gone.
i hate it when ppl
tell you you can trsut them.
enough of the bullcraps.
i tried to trust.
i realllyreally did.
why would it seem to be my fault?
blame for not trustign anyone
and come complaining.
but its because.
i trust you,
i lost my trust.
i feel so stupid/dumb.
academically/others..
theyw ay they explained,
i know its easy for you all.
sorry if my dumbness
irriated you all.
i admit i'm dumb.
i'm stupid.
idkdkdk why.
your actions tells me
you had been deceiving me.
all along.
i feel stupid.
to even trust youyou,
tht i can trust youyou
i dread school,
i cant express what i feel.
idk how.
call me idiot/naive
maybe i am,
to believe i can trust anyone.
its time to step out.
perhaps i'm overlysensitive

ilovethem.
but theyhavemademesoupset
criedcriedcriedcried.
i'vehadenough.
ifitmeanthavinglessfun
butlesshurt
idontmind
helpme,

jh,i feeling like talking to you.
but i cant.
idk how to contact you.
maybe only you
can make me smile?(ihope)

(6:48 PM)