Friday, July 18, 2008

tod was badbad,good
many ppl ask me why i sad.
it semmed obvious.
thanks alot
and asked me eh why you loner?
as in is there any prroblem
its my fault/retribution.
i dont deserve anything

whhywhy
tell me why,
why must you repeat
your mistakes overover again?
this is the ffifth-sixth time.
you want end up
in boys'home?
idk why are you like this.
you are not the person
i know anymore.
where have you been?
why must you do this?
why have you become like this?
is it because of me?
everytime they go work,
i with you.
yet dont care you
use comp,
or either shoutscream at you.
you ask me play scrabble
board games.
i always reject you.
claiming to be tired/lazy.
you call me,
ask me what time i came home.
i gave you stupid answers
i didnt treat you well.
i'm so sorry.
i'm willing to change really.
please go back.
i miss the old you.
i spent my day worryingtearing for you.
i'm really scared.
i will be there for you.
i'm sorry,i'm not a good s.
hate me for all you want,
but please come back.
i beg you..
i dread school/home.
daddy,i need a hug.
but i cant.
all i do,
is hide my tears behind those smile.

i'm sorry i made you cried tod.
you talk to me
i ignored you
i thot you angry with me.
i know you were smsing.
i really dk.
some matters i cant and nvr
tell anyone.
but i really feel like dying.
i teared dk how many times.
when i see you cry
i felt so guilty.
i brought pain to you.
i love you,twinnie.
but like what mama said.
idk how to appreciate.
i'm not a good friend
i'm a failure,lousy
in fact,i dont even think
i deserve.
when i'm gone,
i see a difference.
you so much happiersmiling.
i feel sad.
but i'm happy for you.
sorry for taking advantage of you.
irritating you
suaning you.
i dont deserve you.
i was really upset
thinking about wht you say.
indeed 4 of us drifitng.
i'm supersad.
understand the pain fo you
feeling torn apart.
i'm sorry.
at least for now,
yuo wont need to feel torn apart:]
you deserve and happier
with them one,
at least they'd treat you
better,
love you more,
hurt you less
stay happycheerful.
i'll remember you always

you,i let down.
i made you cry so much.
i deprive you of your
happiness.
everytime i throw my tantrums.
you tolerate.
you qian jiu wo.
dd is gone since 170708.
4 month,
thankyou
i reallyreally dont deserve.
like someone
who deserve better.
all the best with her:]
she will be xinfu one.
jiayoujiayou
all the times
i alguhed
bullied you
irritated you.
was nice.
you can live well without me.
its great to know.
you have great friends,
you dont need me.
now you can concentrate
on your friends:]
cast all your care
you had for me
to selwin,
he needs it,
hes a ncie guy,with a fragile heart.
from now on,i wont disturb
the both of you.
i dont deserve,
never appreciate
instead caused pain to all of you.
i promise to not bother
any of you anymore.
i promise.
sorry.
i'm selfish.
not asking anyone of you
to forgive me.
but i'm really sorry.

i'm sick of pretending.
smilling all the time
sometimes i dont even
knwo myself.
i feel like dying.
when i walk out of school.
sometimes
i wish a car to bang me.
i cant take it.
i had enoguh of crying.

(6:02 PM)