today is the fourth.
perhaps,it should have been fun.
bu tlike always
it dont end up well.
i'm getting used to it.
thanks for the seven chocolates.
boring,effortless,yet sweet.
perhaps,
i'm not tht happy now.
idk why.
i guess it arent sweet.
i get all upset.
for reasons i have absolute no idea.
i admit i throw tantrums
all the time.
i'm super sensitive.
i have to admit,
we had more
conflicts/misunderstandings/quarrels
than fun/happiness.
i hate it.
btu i can thelp it.
but still thank you for being there.
you've been nice.
but idk what happen recently,
i moodswing easily,
upset/pissed off.
sometimes,i really ck.
studies makes me all vexed stressed.
cg just makes it worst.

i thought you really will be there.
but when you have them,
you seem to clear forget
about me.
i seem to be invisible.
somehow what you
said to me
seem to be lies,but lies.

and you,i tried opening
up to you.
i tried to tell you my problems.
but before i even opened up abit.
you slam the door shut.
its not like i dont want go on purpose.
you dont udnerstnad anything.
you make me stress/cry

and you,you treat me nice at times.
but what do you spend most doing.
scold me,
scoldscoldscold.
make small thing into big thing.
dont do anything you say,
threaten to beat me.
why cant i have peace.
i want to love you,
but i cant.

and you,
why it seems you two
vent anger on me
use comp not for sch
jiu scoldscold.
whywhy.

now i know how it feeels like,
you bcc,
i guess i starting
to want to lose you
as a friend