sometimes what may seem a joke to you,

may not be to others.

i found another interesting fact about myself,

i will try all means,to avoid people i am not close with,

cause i dont want them to talk to me.

except people i am super close with.

maybe if got other people can,

but alone never really possible.

so i rarely talk to people when i am alone.

cause i find it awkward.

unless with ultra superclose people,like twinnie:D

today it sort of happened.

my mind was thinking of how to walk off

escape without making it obvious-.-

and i purposely stood farfar,

in case someone see me.

okay,thats rather lame,

but thats me,

i dont know if its rather lame or what.

or act shy like what they say.

but i have laways thought,

or find talking to someone new rather fake/unatural.

like actact feeling,

maybe because i dont like people doing that to me,

naturally i dont like to do it to ppl.

i dont adore ppl asking me questions about me,seriously.

but,i guess its a mindset i have to change.

to others,it may be a piece of cake.

to me,it takes alot.

to be honest,

i dont really like to make friends,

hey,it takes alot to be my friend.

so if you're my friend,means you are really great/good/awesome!:D

i think you 'scold' well,

even though i hate to be scold,

but its rather true.

i will try,but to be honest,

somehow when you said,i almost cry.

and when i receive the sms,also.

i also dk whats my problem,

i cry easily.is it guilt?

i dk,who cares.

i am glad i am still as retarded/happy.

i have myself to entertain.

to be honest,

i was irritated by some people,

as in sometimes,

i also do that.

unintentional words,are soemtimes just irritating.

if you really dk me,

actually i appreciate you shut your mouth.

i wanted to post something special tod,

for 7 special people to me,

decided to postpone.

and olevels are coming, like what tchers are nagging.

i cant help but be afraid.

and i am still as lazy.

<55,

to people,dont ever mention the word slacker to me,

i dont know why i hate the word,

and i think i might blow my top if its said.

so just dont.

maybe i am one,

but jsut dont say luh please.

no direct/indirect meaning

KSW:DDDDD