Wednesday, February 18, 2009
today's post is not a nice post to read,
so dont read,if you're bored easily
me and my korean craze.
i wonder whats hidden behind those glittering eyes
of yours.
i wonder whats hidden behind those smiles.
genuine?
beneath that living being,
is there a broken wrecked heart?
even though,
i find myself failing to discern if
what you say is factual or so.
but somehow,
i know deep in my heart,
it crafts a desire in me to want to know you more.
to help you,
seeing you smile by the ridiculous things i do.
it somehow warms my heart.
in actual fact,
i dont really care if its true.
hearing whatever you said to me,
makes me feel so weird on the inside
gazing at the vast and magnificent skies,
with breeze cool on the skin,
the skies lost no blue,nor did the trees lose their greenery.
just at this depicted scene,
most would feel a sense of freedom and happiness
seeping into their hearts.
somehow it seemed alittle different today,
it was more of a.
sense of blessedness,to be able to sit there
undisturbed,at peace
and witness the wonderful creations.
there i am sitting,
perhaps many others in the world,
are in deep agony and misery.
dying,sick,crippled on the inside.
breathing into the fresh free air,
a sense of longing to help others,
to love,help seems to penetrate into my mind.
not to mention,
thankfulness filled my heart.
living in a beautiful garden of flowers,
how many times have we tried all means
to find that weed,
so as to satisfy our wants for complaints.
even if so,whats done would be done.
hourglass sand would never be able to flow upwards,
always being heavily burdened
by yesterdays' regrets.
acidising it with the problems that would occur tml.
a questionable choice
i guess the sweetest satisfaction lies,
not in accomplishing soemthing for yourself,
but helping others to do so.
'if your self concern is to look after yourself,you'll never find yourself"
if today were my last,
would i love more,give more,forgive more?
like its a pretty obvious answer.
i think i find it rather abnormal for me to write out such stuffs.
but somehow,
today seems to be a simple,yet a significant day,
while i'm enjoying my music here,
eating my meal,
there's probably one kid dying out there.
i feel absolutely fortunate,
so much as there never seems to be an ending
to the things i want to give thanks for.
even though i dont know if you read my blog,
but i think you're right,
you're right,i'm a very unreasonable person.
we belong to the same category.
i think i get frustrated at my childish acts,
it makes me feel irritated.
seriously,
but i cant really control it.
lol?,whoo finally.
a less solemn tone?
its ok,i dont think people even bother to read up to here.
they probably bid me farewell,
after reading the third line.-.-
for that,i think superficial or not?
i guess its not for me to judge,
well,what if one day dad just leaves me,
without bidding farewell,
i certainly dont want to regret.
i think he is the person i love so much,
and feels so much for.
at the rate he smokes and slogs,
i get so worried and upset,
my dad,is almost be the one
whom i confide most in.
becuase i guess he understands and
really is interested in my life,
and makes me laugh like nobody's business
by his cold jokes.
and i'm never tired talking to him.
our quarrels arise only because
he cares for me,and it lasts one day.
and we forget everything after that.
one day,
i'm going to write a compo about my best daddy in the world:]
i wont allow you not to hear about the greatest
thing in your life,
my heart seems infatuated with such
my heart seems infatuated with such
grattitude all of a sudden.
somehow,
i think i've neglected the people
who love me,care for me
so much than i do for them,
yah typical me,
submerging in my own world,
crazy,even making ppl apologise for reasons,
which are obviously my fault
nothing to do with them-.-
gosh,i miss my grandad.
i could almost sense the grief in her eyes,
when she looks at the pictures.
this is going to a sentimental,
boring post?
oh yah,justhink that someone hacked into my account
plus my english is c.m.i
i just feel so..
well,
the people who think they are the most pathetic,
unfortunate people in the world,
will find those who are less fortunate people,
while the less fortunate will find people who are even
less fortunate than them.
the list can go on.
duty calls,for change?
sorry to bore you,
but yes,today's post seems so unlike me.
i should start to think more.
you're not far,
not even a call away,
you make me feel happy,
when i get upset by somethings,
because i know i have you